Wow, Rex. Thanks for sharing. Puts things in perspective.
getting lost in your own home...sounds like a good way to describe so much of what you've been through, the surreality you mention and how disorienting this all is.
(i have a friend going through chemo and radiation right now, and she struggles to endure and persevere ("aushalten +durchhalten")
and here you are, cancer-free of a cancer you didn't know you had three months ago. like it never happened except it did.
My friend J is also now cancer free after a mastectomy
That's really wonderful to hear Mary. I am so happy for you both.
She says some days it seems like a bad dream and she has her life back and other times she feels as if the cancer is just biding its time and will pop up in another site
I can completely relate to that train of thought. For three months I hardly thought of anything else and then one day I get a phone call and the bad dream is over. But is it really? How many folks have been told that they were fine and would be fine only to have the disease rear it's ugly head again in 2-5 years time.
In my mind I will always be connected to this terrible, ugly, disfiguring disease or it will be connected to me.
She has been sober for 20 years and active in meetings and GSO most of that time. But this experience has felt to her like a seismic shift.
I agree completely. This is a completely different type of experience.Please convey my best wishes to her.
Thank you Jen. Yes, the last few weeks I have discovered that life can be ended qucikly and permanently.
I get up every day and take on the challenges of that day, not worrying about next month or next year. There is no use to worry about days we may never see.Sobriety is definitely the best gift I can give myself to start each day and it is totally in my control. It doesn't matter how much or how little money I have or if I have a job or not or if I feel great or am deathly ill, sobriety is within my grasp everyday.