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Rex's 2nd Time Around Volume 2   Sobriety/Recovery Journals

Started 8/31/12 by Rex (rcclark99); 28094 views.
Susan (swl755)

From: Susan (swl755)

9/27/12

Wonderful, wonderful news, Rex! And battle scars to show your grandchildren!

Hope the colonoscopy goes well and it's the last medical thing you have to do for awhile.

Susan
marylouise50

From: marylouise50

9/27/12

This sounds very good and  all the best for Friday Rex -- I feel you had a narrow escape and that you are now able to  get on with living your life.
mkh106
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From: mkh106

9/27/12

on the right side of the grass, sober and going for a good time on friday....yay!

gl;ad to hear it, Rex.

NCorbett3

From: NCorbett3

9/27/12

Now that is a piece of good news to start my day!  So glad, my friend. ((((Rex))))
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Rex (rcclark99)
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From: Rex (rcclark99)

9/28/12

Probably much to the relief of all of you I am about finished writing about my physical condition because there will soon be very little to write about.

As I said earlier this week apparently I am 95% sure of dying from something other than kidney cancer. Today I had my fourth colonoscopy and for the first time ever had no polyps that needed removing, so it looks like it will be something other than colon cancer also. lol

I am enjoying an evening alone with absolutely nothing to do except watch my White Sox blow the lead they had until two days ago in the American League Central Division to the hated Detroit Tigers.

My friend Judy is baby-sitting for the weekend with two small grandchildren so maybe I'll do a little motorcycle maintenance tomorrow which of course will involve some riding. Past time for an oil change and a bath wouldn't hurt it either.

My wife of record is trying to cause a lot of problems within my own family about our separation but I know this happens.......I've been through it once before and am surprised at nothing. Mistruths, half truths and hearsay is being spread through my mother and siblings. I have said nothing bad about her and probably will not.

The cancer episode has strengthened my belief to live in the here and now and let all my tomorrows take care of themselves. I intend to get up clear headed each morning and go to bed sober each night. What happens in between will be the rest of my life.

I don't really know what to say about my sobriety anymore. I come here 3-4 times a day and read but other than that seldom think about it. It just seems so remote to me. I am of course aware that that could change at some point but it sure seems remote now.

marylouise50

From: marylouise50

9/29/12

Good to hear you can now focus on something aside from health -- I was always glad of health updates from you but I know how tedious and  frustrating it is to be ill and  getting through the rigmarole of  medical appointments and procedures and results.

To  be able to get on with the business of living will be a relief and those storms and  conflicts will pass.

take care Rex, a big hug to you.
Brian (BrianB125)

From: Brian (BrianB125)

9/29/12

All and all, sounds pretty good Rex, quite an adventure you've had, I know you're glad its over.  Enjoy the bike ride.

Brian
mkh106
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From: mkh106

9/29/12

that's good news, Rex, ....think you've had enough turmoil for a while?

:)

Rex (rcclark99)
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From: Rex (rcclark99)

9/29/12

Yes margit, I believe I have, but of course the turmoil is far from over as I endeavor to settle my marital status.

It's a beautiful Saturday morning here and I went out briefly to get a bite of breakfast. And now I find myself back at home relishing the quiet and solitude.

I have a lady friend (Judy) whom I believe I am in love with and vice versa. We spend two to three nights a week together and really enjoy the time spent together. But there are other times when I simply enjoy being alone in my own home which is decorated the way I want and furnished the way I want.

I know you have lived alone for many years and not sure I am cut out for that but really kind of confused as to what I do want.

We have no plans to live together at the present time as she has her daughter and her family living with her now (much to her chagrin) and can't bring herself to put them out on the street. She is trying to resolve that situation now.

If indeed that happens I'm not sure what the next move would be.

I'm rambling but just wondered if this kind of confusion has ever come up in your life. It's really none of my business but thought I would ask anyway.

This of course would also be a question for anyone else on the forum who is in a similar situation or has been in the past......Rae, Mary L among others.

As I have said many times, stopping drinking was fairly easy for me, the challenge now is to live a contented sober life, something I think I might always struggle with.

With the immediate health issues seemingly taken care of or at least being taken care of I am back to living my life, which is not always easy for me............maybe not for anyone. I just don't know.

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