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First entry. Love this option of releasing what is in my brain out on to paper, or in this case, out into the world. I have had a long drinking career starting back when I was 13. Most times in my teens and into my twenties seemed glorious and manageable. And some times got me in trouble, but nothing that I couldn't handle. As I got into my thirties, my responsibilities grew with career advancement, getting married, having kids. So while I didn't drink as often, when I did drink, I tried to make it a hum dinger! And that continued the wearing thin with my wife. (She always knew I had issues with alcohol ever since we met.) So wearing thin with the wife, and with older age, my body and brain not being able to cope with horrible hangovers. Enough for first entry.
Good to see you were able to start your journal, Michael!
Much of what you write sounds familiar from my own experiences in my 20s. 'I'm thinking about the phrase 'wearing thin' because most of my relationships while drinking -- and much of the drinking was secretive -- were strained and erratic because I would say things I did mean when drunk, lie about not keeping appointments or arrangements, make excuses for embarrassing behaviour. Gradually those close to me began to pull away to protect themselves. I didn't see it at the time, of course.
Great start to the journal, Michael.
As one of my doctors has told me several times, alcoholism is a progressive disease - it gets worse over time. And as the body ages, it loses it's ability to process alcohol. What you could get away with in your 20, you can't in your 40s, and even less in your 60s.