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Rex's 2nd Time Around Volume 2   Sobriety/Recovery Journals

Started 8/31/12 by Rex (rcclark99); 27172 views.
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Rex (rcclark99)

From: Rex (rcclark99)

Oct-19

Good morning all,

I just wanted to check in and say hello. The autumn season is well underway here in the midwestern U.S. and we have survived 2 1/2 years of a Donald Trump presidency. The weather is cool but not cold yet and leaves are starting to turn colors but not many on the ground today.

I was in the hospital last week for 5 days with another attack of sepsis or bacteremia whichever you'd like to call it. I have been diagnosed with Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis. It's a rare autoimmune liver disease which is oddly not brought on by alcohol abuse but is causing recurring battles with blood bacteria infections. I am now going to the local hospital each day for intravenous antibiotic infusions which should be ending late next week. Soon after that I will be returning to Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota for more tests (another ERCP with liver biopsies).

I am so sick and tired of our political climate that I don't even pay attention to the news anymore. Everyone hates everyone else and it just makes me sick to listen to. The right is far too right and the left is far too left. No one cares about the probably 80% of those of us in the middle but only about the loud, ugly rhetoric coming from both ends of the spectrum.

I'm so afraid that Mr Trump will be elected again because many of the Democrats are so far to the left that they are unelectable IMO.

Judy just became a great-grandmother for the first time a couple of weeks ago and she is scheduled to repeat that experience again next month, one of each; a boy and a girl. The month after (December) I am to have my fourth great-grandchild but I seldom see them because they live several hundreds of miles away in a different part of the country.

Now that my days are growing shorter I realize how fragile life is and how much of my prime years were wasted sitting in bars and pubs in various degrees of inebriation and how many people I've hurt over the years. These were and are good people who loved me. It makes me very sad.

But I am thankful for the two ten-year long periods of sobriety I was able to carve out in different stages of this thing called life.

I still struggle with the subject of spirituality and still read and talk about it sometimes but the truth is that I don't have a clue what it means or how to attain an understanding of it. I try to keep an open mind and be vigilant should I be struck by a bolt from the blue with would give me clarity. 

I will pass my tenth anniversary of my current period of sobriety next month and rarely think of it nowadays. I can't imagine ever having another drink in my life. I'm just not interested even though micro-breweries are popping up all over our country the last few years.

I'm going to close for now but wanted to say hello and let you know you're all in my thoughts often and I'm grateful for this forum being a huge part of my sobriety. I hope you're all safe and healthy doing well.

Brian (BrianB125)

From: Brian (BrianB125)

Oct-20

Rex

You know, aside from the autoimmune problem, it sounds like you are doing pretty well.  It is kind of amazing to reach our 70s.  Sometimes I just stop and think how did this happen, I was 40 just a few weeks ago!  But it sounds like you still have thing you are interested in doing - and at our age, I think that's what's important - life is still fun and exciting even if I can't do all the things I used to do.

I was just in Chicago for a few days.  We went for a funeral of a cousin of my wife.  We had a little memorial service and then went out for a big lunch - a good way to end.  Then we drove down to South Bend to the Snite Museum at the University of Notre Dame - which has a collection of kinetic art by George Rickey - my current inspiration.  I've got enough ideas to keep me going for another couple of years..  Then we came back to Chicago and saw Hamilton - which was a lot of fun.  I've wanted to see it for a while but have been put off by the price of the tickets.  But the show in Chicago was relatively reasonable - so we went and I'm glad we did.  

So, wishing you the best Rex - just keep plugging away.

Brian

Rex (rcclark99)

From: Rex (rcclark99)

Oct-20

Thanks for your reply, Brian. Aside from the PSC and Bacteremia episodes I am doing well. But every time  I’m hospitalized with sepsis it sets me back several weeks with extreme fatigue, and lack of strength and endurance. 

i still have my show cars which are always an outlet for creativity and energy and of course money. They will be put away shortly for the winter but I can plan for changes and additions next spring. 
 

I’m glad you enjoyed Hamilton. I haven’t seen it yet but many of my friends have and enjoyed it.

Are you still welding? And enjoying it. 

I go to my family business about 20 hours a week when able to which gives me structure and purpose and gives me a chance to interact with my two surviving kids on a regular basis. That’s a true blessing for me.

Once again thanks for the post. When these medical issues start piling up I do have a tendency to feel sorry for myself. 

mkh106

From: mkh106

Nov-4

oof, Rex, those sepsis episodes and the condition just sound so very draining, and i’m sorry to hear of it. also sounds like you have top notch medical care, so that is reassuring.

i had to laugh at your comment about your Democrats being too far to the “left”: up here, they would be most closely akin to the Conservatives, and considered quite far “right”.

greetings,

Margit

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