LifeRing Recovery: a self-help alternative for recovery from alcoholism and other chemical dependency. Group support for abstinence from alcohol and “drugs” by empowering the sober self within you. Completely secular: no prayers, Higher Powers or Steps.
I have been addicted to snorting pain pills for roughly 5 years now. Just a month ago I had 55 days clean. I suffered through the withdrawals all while working Monday to Friday. Being at home was almost worse than being at work. Feeling so embarrassed and useless in front of my children. Anyways I stated to myself that when I started to feel a bit normal that I was never going back to pills. Rewind a month from today and I hurt my back and thought I needed the pills to help me get through the pain. I know deep down it was an excuse that by A brain was telling me. This led to using multiple times everyday for a month. Today is day 2 of not using and although this times withdrawals are nowhere near as bad physically they are just as painful and tough mentally. The tough part is no one knows that I was snorting pills 10 times daily. Not my wife not my kids not my friends no one. I was able to keep it a secret but that doesn’t mean I haven’t hurt my family and done terrible things that they don’t know about. Anyways I just needed to vent and get this off my chest and I’m looking forward to tomorrow and a week from now when the withdrawals are just about over and I can start the journey again to changing my life. I know I will need support as no one knows what I’m going through so I would love to chat.
Welcome to the group. Venting is one of the things we are here for, so feel free. Most of us here had problems with alcohol, but you're story doesn't sound all that different. And many of us have gone through relapses - sometimes that's just the way it is. So good luck and keep coming back to let us know how you are doing, we're here for you.
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I have been there. Hope all is well with you. Sometimes we screw up. Just try to stay focused & strong. Make sure you find the support you need my friend.