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Started 9/4/19 by Meredith (GettinFree); 16663 views.
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Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/19/19

Looking back at my full quit journal (offline), I was "a frog's hair from bursting into tears" 16 days after I went from full tobacco to half tobacco. Yesterday was 15 days after I went off nicotine altogether. It's really comforting to see that this is just how it goes. Apparently the next day or two may be particularly, ahem, witchy-with-a-B, with perhaps a moving-forward dream after. 

(Ooo, I hadn't mentioned the depression dream where my M.D. was teaching a massage therapy class and rejected my application to the program...yeah that was a fun start to Tuesday.)

Also, I wanted to see when some of my milestones were, so...

22 days between stepping down and going off (8/12/19 to 9/3/19)

3 weeks: 9/24/19

1 month: 10/3/19

2 months: 11/3/19

3 months: 12/3/19

100 days: 12/12/19

6 months: 3/3/20

200 days: 3/21/20 (also my 11th wedding anniversary!)

5,000 hours (=208 days): 3/30/20

1 year: 9/3/20

10,000 hours (=417 days): 10/24/20

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Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/19/19

And PLEASE don't feel bad, whoever reads all this dren, for skimming.

I know I'm going on full spew mode, and it's more about the writing than the getting it read, and it's just plain *a lot*, and I know that every stupid detail of my life is /way/ less fascinating to anyone else. Maybe I should keep it in the Notepad file, but on the other hand there's this whole vulnerable thing I'm working on this year...

So thank you for whatever you do read, and know that it's all good. <3

alexisfree

From: alexisfree

9/19/19

I read all of it and it was very cathartic thank you Meredith.  I think the very fact of knowing we’re not alone is comforting so thank you for the long post and all your honesty.  I really appreciate it.  I need to go walk or do something because I’m feeling low again.  xoxo

Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/19/19

purple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heartpurple_heart

Sorry you're feeling low now too...just think though, we'll get a good -- well, decent night's sleep and wake up tomorrow perky AF again. ;)

Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/20/19

Close enough. 

  • Edited September 21, 2019 5:34 am  by  slowblumer
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Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/20/19

Ohohoh, becoming an ex-smoker is like having your period: lots of people know what you're going through, but not everyone, and those who don't know have no clue that there's a whole world of things about it.

Head is much calmer today. I even had a second dream in one week! This was also about school (i.e., retraining, i.e., becoming an ex-smoker), but rather than getting rejected for licensure and crying like I used to, I was getting settled in a dorm room and prepping for classes. The song Calling All Angels featured, which I take as indication to enlist the support of my Superfriends, Quan Yin, Jesus, and White Buffalo Calf Woman. Woke up with a different song in my head:

Come here. No, I won't say please. One more look at the ghost before I'm gonna make him leave.
Come here. I got the pieces here. Gonna gather up the splinters, build a casket for my tears.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRUErh47sao

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3lBF2h-Pl0

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Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/21/19

Said the other tings to the person (by email, what a chicken), and yeah, okay, embarrassment is a trigger for sure. I could murder a cigarette right about now.

But instead I'll murder a nicodemon, and drink some water.

alexisfree

From: alexisfree

9/21/19

Good job Meredith!  I’m drinking water right now.  Today was a little heavier on the cravings for me as well.  Just gotta make it til bedtime!  blush

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