Hi Alex. Hang in there sweet girl and breathe.  You're doing great and you should be super proud of yourself this is not easy but you're doing it and I'm sure you'll be a great mommy even without the grandparents help just take things one thing at a time and you'll make it through. Big (((Hugs))) to you!

I can’t believe I missed this!  Thanks Blue!  I’m all alone with the girls this weekend.  We did trick or treating tonight.  They’re both asleep now.  I’m doing it!  Really tired, but I didn’t die 

Way to go Alex and just think your girls will never remember you as a smoker, how cool is that.