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Started Aug-29 by feafee78; 592 views.
feafee78

From: feafee78

Aug-29

I’m not sure where to post this, so I’m just taking my best guess at which discussion, lol. 
I’m restarting my quite today, 8/29. I made it to almost 4 months from November to Feb, then started to sneak one here and there, then a pack, then… well, it goes on. You know the story, I’m sure. 
I’ve been putting off picking a day, but since I’m having surgery on my right arm in 7 hours, today seems like a good day to go for it. 
I’m pretty much a closet smoker, so when I get the house to myself it’s a huge trigger. My immediate family in my house know, but I never let them see me smoking and no one else knows. It causes so much anxiety, always wondering if I’ll have to wait a long time. Showering before I go out. My best friend came to visit the other day and I was hoping she wouldn’t stay long because I really wanted to smoke. :(

So, it’s time to get rid of them and get back to a normal life where I rarely think of smoking. I seem to do well the first week, but can quickly lose it after that. My family is going to be out of town for a few days next month and I know that’s going to be a really hard time. I may have to plan on doing something big for getting through it without losing my quit. 
 

Anyway, I want to just put it out here and commit to it. I know checking in here helped me so much in November. I see some familiar names and hope to get support along with offering it. 

Jenny

JavaNY

From: JavaNY

Aug-29

Hi Jenny,

Glad you picked another quit date. There's an excitement about quitting and sometimes that wears off after the first few months. We think we've beaten the habit and can have an occasional one.  But you are making the right move to restart. 

Smoking is particularly bad during surgery.   Good luck with that and good luck with the quit. Stay tuned to this site.

Paul

Hi Jenny and welcome back!

So glad you picked another quit date and we are right here to support you.  So many times I quit and then just lost the ambition to keep fighting it.  That is so much energy to hide it... I give you props for that.  And then torturing yourself until you can find a time to have another.  Just think of the time you're losing (that cigarettes are robbing you of) that you could be spending with your friends and family.  You can do this.

I hope your surgery goes really well today.  Please check in and let us know how it went.

feafee78

From: feafee78

Aug-29

Surgery went really good. :) I’ve wished a bit that I hadn’t thrown out my last cigarettes last night, but it’s a good thing I did. It really is amazing how much power those things have over me. Well, how much power I’ve given them. Ugh. 
Definitely not smoking today, so I’m excited for day 1!

That's great news.  

I remember when I had my daughter (27 years ago).  I was fine when I was in the hospital not smoking but the minute I got out, there I was lighting up.  It's an addiction...pure and simple.  Worst than most horrible drugs out there today (like cocaine or heroin).  Congratulations on Day 1 not smoking.  Just take it one day at a time.  Maybe start reading some of these great articles while you're healing.  I think I read them all like 10 times in the beginning of my quit.  There was really so much I didn't know and they really helped me.  You probably remember a lot of them from your last time.

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feafee78

From: feafee78

Aug-31

Got through day 2! Not being able to drive is helping, I’m sure. I’ve resisted the urge to dive in our large trash can to look for any remnants of cigarettes I may have thrown out. Believe me, I definitely thought about it and tried to guess how hard it would be with my right arm all wrapped up. A bit ridiculous, indeed. The trash goes out tomorrow night, so only one more day of resisting dumpster diving. Ridiculous doesn’t begin to cover it, lol  

I spent some time reading different posts on here tonight and it was really nice. I’m so happy to be back here and working on being free. When do you consider yourself free? I’ve struggled the psychological cravings years after a quit, so I’m not sure I’d say I was ever truly free. I was definitely free many of those days, though, so mostly free? It’s too late for deep thoughts, lol. Good night. Wish me luck on staying out of the trash.

JavaNY

From: JavaNY

Aug-31

It is amazing what we would do to get a drag. I think you are correct that we are never 100% free. 5 years ago, I had quit for 20 months but foolishly went back. But it definitely gets better. The number of cravings and the intensity goes down. Best of luck with your quit and your arm recovery.

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candrew

From: candrew

Sep-3

java

good to hear from you today. this is Andrew getting in another day of not smoking. tonight is tough because I am in one of those moods. That mood being I really want a drink.I have managed to stay away for almost 5 years. it's a little like my smoking habit except its serous business. I don't talk about it much; it was huge problem (or used to be). Dad taught me well, although he only smoked a pipe, same thing except he claims he never inshlad. Bul**it. 

I don't know it you drik at all but alcohoe and cigs are like 2 peas in a pod, they go  together like a married couple, at least in good standing.  Thankfully I am so, she has not idea what I am iup to. ca;l; it closet, in the dark, far out.

Need some support tonight. I wikl be fine if I stay away from the C-Store. God knows that I have ome this far and do not want to (you noe). 

Liostening to my jazz, my savior my love. I sit here alone thinking about life. How good it is wulout the cigs. I dont care abut much except ...

Rnogh. alll a good night.

Andrew

JavaNY

From: JavaNY

Sep-4

I hope thinks are better, in the morning Andrew, and you refrained from both drinking and smoking.  You are doing the right things, listening to something you enjoy and how much better life is without tobacco.

I do drink and you are correct smoking tends to go with alcohol. For me in part because of the history of using them together. 

candrew

From: candrew

Sep-4

For sure, Paul

The two go together like Mutt and Jeff. Hope your serenity keeps you clean & sober.

Andrew

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