I have anxiety and depression and it comes in waves.  So whenever I am in a bad headspace I relapse.  For me, the desire to smoke never really goes away.  If I am around smokers I want to smoke.  I feel the same as you.  It grosses me out so I quit then I forget about how gross it is and I want it.  

Debra,

I quit smoking 13 months ago and I currently have very vivid dreams. I've only had a few smoking dreams, but I dream bizarre stuff that ranges from my ex husband, my current husband, and my job. These all started back in March when I switched departments at work. 

My sleep cycle has changed so much. I go to bed shortly after dinner and sleep a solid 4 hours. I then wake up every hour or so from my dreams.

Bev

Quit January 1, 2019

Debra,

My oldest son got me a Fitbit for Christmas. I wear it to bed. My sleep patterns vary a little bit, but it is roughly consistent.

Bev

Quit January 1, 2019

Hi Genevieve,

Congratulations on starting your quit, you won't regret it, As for the February quit  group you are in it, you  have joined so to speak, just read and post, read and post, especially when you think the wheels are falling off your quit. I drink plenty of iced water and chew mints voraciously to stem the tide of cravings. I am also using patches, I was a 30/day smoker.

Welcome to the February group

Kind regards

Anthony 8 days 

Hi Holypoker

Welcome to the forum, sorry to hear about your anxiety and depression, and your Dad passing away, all I can say is to read and post on this site till your fingers are sore, recruit a quit support team around you who are aware of your goals and will help you achieve them, you have come to the right spot, there are many quitters on this site with more experience than me who can help you, I am what you would call a serial quitter so I have been through this quitting process many times before and support is crucial. For your anxiety and depression I would suggest you make an appointment with your Doctor, who could help you. Head on over to the daily pledge folder and make a pledge each day to NOPE which means Not One Puff Ever, it is a powerful acronym which will remind you to never smoke again

Kind regards

Anthony 8 days

Good morning Holypoker,

I am so glad to see that you're not giving up on your quest for freedom.  What did you learn from your last quit that you can use to make a difference with this new one?  You mentioned that you experience anxiety and depression in another post.  Please take a look at the articles below I think they will be helpful.  Keep on keeping on.  You can do this.  You deserve to be free.

Verywell Mind

How Quitting Smoking Can Seriously Affect the Medicines You Take

Smoking interacts with prescription medications. Those medications can be greatly affected when smoking stops abruptly.

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Verywell Mind

Mindfulness Meditation Exercise for Anxiety

Learn about mindfulness meditation, a type of relaxation technique that may be able to reduce feelings of stress and anxiety.

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Best wishes as you continue your cessation journey.

(((Hugs)))

Dee

Welcome to the forum........................................by signing in to the February 2020 Ex-Smokers you automatically become a member.  That's all you have to do.

The more we understand about what recovery from nicotine addiction is like, the better able we are to manage it.  Stay close and read everything you can around this forum.  Start with the first post in this thread and read everything. Education is a major key to a successful quit. 

(((Hugs)))

Hello February Winners!

You may have noticed discussions entitled NOPE PLEDGE with a date. Every day forum members from all over the world, at all stages of quit, gather to pledge to remain smoke-free.  NOPE stands for Not One Puff Ever.   One forum member begins the pledge, and others join in. It's a great way to start your day and renew your commitment. You can find it under DISCUSSIONS in the column on the left. Scroll down to General Chit-Chat.

(((Hugs)))

Thank you, I am 6 hours in, feeling good, but I've been there before. I relapse when something bad happens, if I do something wrong or think I've upset someone, the stress makes me want to smoke, all good intentions go because I think 'it doesn't matter if it's killing me, I'm a bad person' although I also know I'm using that as an excuse to give in

I'm feeling more positive this time because of this forum

Don't be so hard on yourself, there's good and bad in all of us, don't focus on the negative, but think about the positive things in your life, if you upset someone apologise and move on, it's great that you are feeling good about your quit, write down all the good things about quitting and read over your list when you are feeling down, Reasons for quitting is a good place to start, Read some of the milestone posts from other quitters in Discussions under the Dots and Stars Milestones folder, read about the trials and temptations of other quitters and how they overcome them.

And remember to read and post, and help will be on it's way.

Kind regards

Anthony 8 Days