Greetings!

So I just went to listen to Wishlist...I remembered that from Pink Floyd.  Then I listened to Comfortably Numb.  Kind of an out of body experience because the old nicotine will no longer take me there.  Ha!!

Red neck ice cube report.......Unless you hold these to your body you will not stay cool enough.  So I had 4 and water jogged.  Little awkward but worked!  Yes one would think the water would cool you off but here unfortunately after heat index temps over 100 and high humidity it can be warm bath water.  The next night it rained and that sufficiently cooled it down.  The bottles are back in deep freeze until the next emergency.  Lol

Curious to know what you decided with your tattoo artist?  I mentioned that but read somewhere that you have one Eve so I am the virgin.  Lol

I did get a henna armband twice.  Once in the Keys and once in Honduras.  That’s the bravest I have been Lol. I really don’t have any cigarette money with the 4 crowns and colonoscopy coming up.  So thrilling!!!

So now it is 2:30 in the afternoon and on 2nd cup of coffee.  Going to go put Kombucha on grocery list. Lol

Hope you are having a nice smoke free day my girls

Peggy

5-8-20

Wait! No...the song “Wishlist” by Pearl Jam! 
Though I am a bit comfortably numb... the song I love is Pearl Jam.

Get Kombucha and I will talk later! Off to sleep walk now! Ha!

Check this out!

Wandering SE PDX....I’ve found a mate for John! Woohoo! 

She is shorter and more stout appearing. And too far for me to walk to every night... But I will go tonight and share her with John. She is younger too; this one is 18. Ahhh..such a tender young age to bloom, especially but just once. Perhaps we are among the luckier creatures on the planet yes? For we have all of our lives to bloom and grow and wander with the wind. Mmmm. 
The other good news for the day...I have a SCOBY baby! Yeeesss! I’ve also figured out that I’m gonna need a second small fridge for my Kombucha after this second ferment, and am gonna need people to give it to....
It does do very well if I have a smoke crave to just pop a bottle open and sip on it. All in all I guess it is a healthy new addiction.... even if my small house is turning into a SCOBY hotel! 

Hey Lore,

Nope I flew to Oregon and have been stalking you, watched you pick up the snails.....lmao. Yes you mentioned (brain fog or sleepiness?) 

Ok going to picture you in a mask with Morticia Addams dress, taking blood from your patients! Haha. 
 

1more day of work and you are off for 7.....yeah

Whats a SCOBY?

Hey Peggy,

Thanx for the red neck ice cube report.....glad it rained! Tomorrow we are supposed to get LOTS OF RAIN! Possibly flash flooding. We had that the other day, but didn’t effect me, or my area....more north of city. See what happens tomorrow.

I get what you mean by the money part. It’s funny how that all that happened to you when you quit, but then maybe you would be trying to figure out how to pay for it. So still a good thing you quit. Eventually you will be able to save the extra money. Usually tattoos cost a couple hundred dollars, at least the last time I checked. Maybe Lor knows. Were you thinking of getting one? If you could? I’m still pondering. Have been for 2years now. Lol

Whats this Kubucha stuff? What does it do for you? Does it have caffeine in it? Where do you buy?

Did you sleep in today? Still having issues on sleeping a lot? Mine lasted a good long time! Some days though like last weekend I took a 5hour nap. 
 

Goodnight enjoy being a non smoker!
 

Hey Eve!

If you come to Oregon you darn well better stay with me!

Kombucha is fermented tea. It is fermented by the SCOBY which stands for “symbiotic culture of bacteria and yeast”. It is soooo good for you! Has tons of probiotics. You can make it (or buy it) in a ton of flavors. Some are sweeter and some are more tart. Since the base is tea, it does have some caffeine. But the SCOBY eats a fair amount of the caffeine in the fermentation process. Depends too if you use black or green tea or a combo. I bet if you look in the store there you can easily find it and try it and come give us a report!! I’d suggest getting some by GT or Brew Dr first and see if you like it. Our regular grocery has it here, but Portland is pretty crunchy (lol!) if not, like Whole Foods has a good variety or, better yet, if you have a small local natural food store or Co-op they will have it too I bet. Get something in a flavor you like. I love Brew Dr. Island Mango. I’m telling you...Mmmmm! 
I am so dying for you to try it!! 
Yes....Me in the Morticia dress...with a mask...and a great big syringe in my hand! Hahaha! Love it. And a Kombucha in the other hand! Yes! No hands left to smoke. Which I have thought about a fair amount today. Not craved really...just bored and thinking about it. Don’t worry. Won’t cave. Not today. All I gotta worry about is today. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Want me to post a picture of a SCOBY for you???

Hi Lore, I will look for it this weekend. Does it boost your energy level or metabolism? Or just a good tea? 
 

The weekend has arrived! Going to be an extremely rainy day.

Need more coffee....brain has not woke up yet! Talk soon!

I think it boosts my brain. Definitely good for your gut. Can’t say it really tastes like tea your used to. The bubbles are the best though. 
Yeah, my brain is definitely not awake yet. I do love the light mornings though. The sunset last night had me off to memories of other times and places and very much wishing I were anywhere else. It was so gorgeous and vibrant. One of those that if I’d been at the coast I would have been tempted to walk into the water after it to have it engulf me and wrap me in the golden orange pink that fades to blood orange at the horizon...just walk right on into it and melt with the fading memory of the day and sleep on the waves all night long under the sea of stars. It was that pretty. Of course that’s not how the story would end so I wouldn’t have done that, but oh so tempted I’d have been anyway... After today I’ve got a week to wander and fill my soul. The thought alone is tugging me from even going in. But I’ll let it carry me through the day and have set my mind to calm. 
Happy Friday to you my friend. Hope your weekend is the most relaxing ever! 

Oh thanks Eve.....

It is so easy to think something is wrong with me when I sleep like that and cannot wake up.  A friend confirmed it was still the smoking jag and now you validated it.  I am in a weird place trying to get through the thought that this will be or should be over.

I love the 5 hour nap.  I am notorious for those.  I saw weather is coming your way!!  I was up early watering cos it is going to be smoldering.

I thought about a tattoo....for about a minute.  Lol.  Who knows?  It could happen.

Just to let you know Kombucha May freak you out at 1st.  The fizz is like nothing you have felt!!!  I had to drink mine like real slow.  It’s a trip drinking something ALIVE.  There is my syfy  coming out of me again...Lol but it is really different.  Go for it!!

Have a restful smoke free day my friend!!

Peggy

Hey Lore

I know you were in a funk this day and while you were writing to Eve I wanted to talk about the giving cigarettes up for Lent thing.  Also your friend not understanding why you call yourself an addict after you have quit.  I have come across that last one and came to an understanding of it but the Lent thing?

I grew up Catholic ( am not anymore) and I recall the Giving up something for Lent thing.  I can see where smoking or maybe even drinking could be something to choose to give up.  What bothers me is the misinformation I have carried around that after a month or so all the craves, symptoms, thoughts would be gone about smoking which I have found to be so untrue and that it will be a lifetime thing.....Time of course will lessen the pain if I DO NOT PICK ONE UP AND SMOKE IT.

The thing about giving it up for Lent I guess it could be a practice quit.  But with this, one just STOPS FOR AWHILE and does not ACTUALLY QUIT.  How many of us could do that?  Probably ALL because we know we get to smoke again when Lent’s over.  I have not had a drink of alcohol in 33 years.  I am addicted because IF I drink I know I will not stop.  However, nowadays, I say I am no longer am in bondage to alcohol.  THIS IS BECAUSE I DONT DRINK IT. 

I was surprised that the cigarette quit is the exact same thing as alcohol. More physical symptoms with the nicotine for me.  And of course the damage you inflict on others with alcohol is much worse, you can’t go to jail for cigs, etc.  But emotionally, mentally it is the exact same.

Anyway.....all this said, I was glad you mentioned this.  It has helped me reconcile what actually is entailed in the quit, that it is not nor sissies, expect to be very uncomfortable but it is all entirely worth it. 

I am so surprised that I am not out of breath as I once was even after just 2 months.  Freedom on so many levels.

You should write  memoirs at the very least to pass on.  That story about how your name came to be is right out of a movie!!!  Why did your dad hate the name Rebecca? That is just a scream!!  Loreli sp?  Is cool but I hear ya about “the song”  Lore is cool because it means a story.....Wow Heidi.....I Love!  9th kid.....Wild!!!  Do you keep in touch with your sibs?  That’s a lot to keep track of! One of my favorite children’s book and movie was Heidi and the Swiss alps my favorite place!!!

Have a lovely smoke free day

Peggy

5-8-20