Hey X

Just checking in. I trust everything is good with you.

I have been craving a lot these days. I know in my heart that I will not surrender to my addiction. I am very strong today and feel that I am in a protected state which will not allow me to waiver my decision. 

How about you? I'll never forget you saying that I must eliminate all forms of nicotine to really claim I am smoke free. My sister says the same thing. I guess I need to start listening to you'all. Still sucking on those damn patches, compulsively. They are a security blanket that I carry around at all times. 

Hot and humid here in Central Florida. Can't wait for fall.

Take care

Andrew

Dancin' with the Miricle of Life

Hi Andrew! I am doing well, on vacation. Your are doing so well! That you can stop yourself from smoking despite cravings is a big achievement. Perhaps you need more time to get off the patches. Maybe not stress too much now about it, if it distracts you from the process of smoking cessation. I’m almost 13 months nicotine free, and my last craving was in March of this year. It came out of nowhere after months of not having cravings at all, and it was quite strong. I now view it as the last jerk of my addicted brain.  I no longer have any cravings. It’s not that the thought doesn’t sometime cross my mind but it’s sort of a surreal thought. I can’t imagine myself actually inhaling this smelly choking junk into my lungs. I see people smoke and I actually feel sorry for them, especially young people.The are caught in a trap and some of them don’t even know it, they don’t view it as addictive. Anyways keep at it! 

Hey Andrew,

Hope you're having a better day today.  Sorry I didn't respond  sooner but have a bunch of things (not all good) going on in my life right now.  But I'm hoping things will get better soon.  

Just like xvaper says, it can really hit you out of the blue and happen at any time.  I really think I was about 14 months in when my last BIG crave hit.  I still get them from time to time but nothing like that first 14 months.  And again, just like at one month, you have to push through it.

I hope you can wean off those pouches soon.  It's tough I know, but trading one addiction for another is not the way to go.  You can do it though...we are all here for you!

Hey Cin

Thanks for the reply. it's nice knowing that there are people out there keeping an eye on me. 

Yea, the pouch consumption is a little compulsive. Between them and my caffeine intake I am sailing through the days, getting lots done in a hyperactive manner. That will be short lived because as X said I am not totally free until I get rid of the pouches. I hope to eliminate them soon. 

Coffee is another story. I drink it all day every day until I go to bed. I take a med that puts me down within 20 minutes and I stay asleep for the entire night. Go to the hot tub to relax at about 10p, up until midnight or 1. Up at 6 raring to go. 

My sister thinks that I am on another manic episode. Not true sis. I love having this energy and recognize the insane behavior that manic brings. I am quite sane. My neighbors think I am crazy when I do my morning walks dancing down the street.  

Oh well. Otherwise doing well. I trust this post finds you well and happy.

Your friend

Andrew

Oh wow, I love it - dancing in the street   - DAVID BOWIE MICK JAGGER style.  Good for you Andrew.  You have much to dance for so keep on.

Cheers!!

David Boie and Mick Jagger are not really my style. I am almost 70 and more relaxed than they are. I listen to contemporary jazz. It energizes my soul. I dance to music that is just as powerful but at a slower pace.

Good hearing from you Anne. I have always enjoyed your inciteful posts. 

Good day,

Andrew

Cheers Andrew, keep on dancin!!