Some of you may have wondered where I have been these last 4 months or so. *Or maybe not as my comings and goings are more obscure* I have been doing alot of soul searching in regards to my Path(s). It seems when it always come to this time of the year I am delving inwards and learning more about myself. Of course it is always far from easy to search inwards looking into every shadowed corner and nook of of my being...but I have come out with many realizations of letting go of the old and ushering in the new. *especially with old emotional clutters including a cesspool of depression amongst other things I was clinging to*
I posted here not too long ago in regards to wishing to follow the Druid Path, but out of all my meditations and sorjourneyings I found out that Druidry is not the Path for me to walk...although it showed me alot of wisdom and insight to where I would be going, it acted moreso as a gateway. I knew the "Mist Filled Path" called me in a different way. So I prayed to the Goddess and Celtic Gods to help guide me along my ways as I meditated on my inner truths.
About 4 days ago I recieved what you could call a "Cosmic Slap" of realization. It is one big experience I cannot yet put into words, but I know I have found, or refound my Path: Celtic Wicca. The amazing thing is the Mists within me parted offering up a glimmer, or grail of knowledge with an overwhelming sense of who I am along with my place in creation. *feeling very emotional as of late that to everything I see, whether it is on tv, something I read, or what someone says that stikes a chord with me I deep rush of emotions and the need to cry arises. I beleive that this is the healing process relating to my inner reconciliations*
I deeply apologize if this sounds all jumbled...I am still comprehending and sorting everything into my being about everything that has been going on. All I know is that the sun shines brighter, the leaves stir more fluently, the fall colors are more brilliant, everything has a light to it brough forth from the "greys" lately that covered everything over with my cynacism...but everything is just truely wonderous! Not as an escape from reality, but aligning with reality and that the rigors of life are more beautiful in it's raw and fluid integrity.
Much Love and Phoenix Blessings,