I've been following this and have left you a couple of messages, glad to hear that your starting to feel better.
After everything that you've been through over the last few months, hearing that you're Cancer free, and that the hematoma is beginning to reduce would cause anyone to lower their guard, and just let out a sigh of relief.
Perhaps that was all the opening that the craving needed. It might be time to check out that Mens group you used to talk to, or your therapist. Try to get out of your own head for awhile,
But call someone before you have that first one. Im rooting for you buddy. I just passed 10 months today and you were a big part of that,
Stay well today.