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How did you do, Alex ? Hope life is being kind to you. Even Super Moms can use a break now and again.
So, I feel like I'm hanging on by a thread. I ran a bunch of errands at lunch, but I don't think I needed to, but I did any way. Then, that took me away from work, so now I'm stressed about being behind at work. And my husband has a conference this weekend that he wants me to be at with him all day. AND the grandparents are leaving Monday and I don't know how I'm going to get everything done without their help! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for asking. LOL!!
I ran a bunch of errands at lunch, but I don't think I needed to, but I did any way. Then, that took me away from work, so now I'm stressed about being behind at work.
I so get it. Many times I think I bring about my own stress trying to do it all in as little time as possible. Sometimes I have to just tell myself to BREATHE AND SLOW DOWN. I think stress was what made me self medicate many times. Having to learn new ways to deal with it.
Brenda (1sept19) said:
Sometimes I have to just tell myself to BREATHE AND SLOW DOWN.
Great advice! I've been thinking, "Slow down, Alex". But I haven't told myself yet. So, now I am. "Alex, you need to slow down. Your smobriety depends on it. People are watching you. Put your oxygen mask on and breeeaathhhheee..." Ahhhhh....so nice :)
I completely forgot about "slow down"! Wow. I need to be closer to the forum. I had a huge urge to smoke yesterday. Then the depressive thoughts came back. Is this all a precursor to the icky 3rd month? Because I don't like it. Anyways...I thought I better come on here and type something in my journal because, yeah, I need to take care of my quit. It is so important to me and I don't want to lose it. With work and home life being so busy, I feel like I haven't had even one minute to breathe. I used to do this thing where I would meditate in the morning and pray - not doing that anymore. The girls get me up at 5:30am - how am I supposed to get up before that?! I'd never sleep. Maybe I can move my meditation to the middle of the day. Or something else? I don't know. My leg also still hurts so I haven't been able to do my walking which I love. And I haven't weighed in, in two weeks because I hate myself and have been eating everything under the sun. Whoa! I need to get back to the solution, quick! Like the song says, "Order, disorder, reorder, over and over." Ugh!!!
Hi, Alex. I miss you in our september group.
I am almost 2 months smoke free but the craves are very strong plus dreams that I smoke, night by night. It is been a torture. I understand that at the end of every months something is happening in our brain. Some receptors are shuting down. This must be a reason why we feel what we feel. Indeed we must stay close to the forum.
By the way. I start writting a lot in my journal I keep in my computer. I writte even one hour if it is needed until the crave is gone.
And the most important I must reward my self for beeing smoke free. I admit I forgot to do that for a while and I was depresed.
Michaela! Yay! Yes, we must reward ourselves. Life is not a vail of tears. It is only miserable if I make it so. And I was literally CHOOSING SELF PITY. Until it hurt enough and then I decided to change my behavior. :D
I went shopping with my husband yesterday - he's going to take me to a ball! I get to wear a ball gown AND sneakers! He and his friends are sneaker heads so they have a sneaker "prom" if you will. I imagine it will be so fun. At least to get out of the house and away from the kids for a little bit.
I've noticed that I really like walking in the sun and listening to music - it is so meditative and healing for me. I'm going to do more of it. <3
I really think there are things happening to my brain because I was in such a bad spot and then I'm not. Maybe some of the receptors shut down?! Yippee!!
I get to wear a ball gown AND sneakers! He and his friends are sneaker heads so they have a sneaker "prom"
Oh how fun !!! We will need pictures too . Should be a kick in the old Patooty !!
LOL! I love you Brenda. Will post pics!
Feeling so gross right now. Sore throat and coughing. Its the pits. I know smoking would just make it worse. Just want to sleep. Maybe the icky third month is upon me? I have two months and two weeks - so it seems probable. No real cravings to smoke, but just more self pity and anxiety and depression. I drank a lot of tea today and I think its helping. I also ordered some more of my fave tea online. So that's good. I may make some honey lemon tea tonight - that should help. I really need to get some work done, but feeling unmotivated. What's really bumming me out is the fact that I got a bad report from the doc on my cholesterol. Its high. And I don't want to take medication for it. But at this point, I don't see an alternative. I've tried for years to get it down with diet and even at my lowest weight it was still high. So, do I just take the medication? He's giving me three more months. I kind of just want to cancel my appointment for follow up and not go back to him ever again - cause that's helpful right? Ugh...