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Amazing creatures emit 100% of their light! The most efficient light producers!! I have not seen this bioluminescent plankton!!! Sounds amazing!! Also a must see is the Aurora Borealis someday!! I got these cone lights to hang in the trees. Like the last ones, I thought they wud be warm light but these are flickering! Kind of cool. Do not put out much light but the effect is ethereal. Love!! Makes me happy.
So Feb. 24th it is.
So you are going to be the mad scientist in the Kombucha lab!!! Love it!! Berry blend....delish!! Good hobby and great accompaniment to your walks!! That stuff has the most unusual fizz.
Hope you survived the work weekend and have a beautiful smoke free day !
I love that quote, too. I've been trying to make some changes in my life. Normally, I walk the dogs on a fairly flat landscape. Recently, however, I decided to challenge myself and my dogs to a more vigorous walk, up and down some very large hills. I'm not incredibly in shape, I admit. I sweat and pant and am utterly exhausted. I have noticed that I'm getting faster every day and when I come home and sit in my backyard listening to the leaves rustle, I feel a sense of peace. It's like I take a deep breath and take in the world as it is. I don't worry about the day or tomorrow, I just am. I feel like the world is so full of facts and news and quick moving information that we all forget to just sit. To ponder and observe. You, loreficent, in my opinion are an observer and a ponderer. I like that and I want you to know that while my writing is not on par with yours, I appreciate hearing your thoughts and hearing your ideas. This was long winded and rambling, but I just want you to know that I support you and am eagerly watching your progress. Nice work.
What you just wrote was very beautiful...and kind.
Though that is a very sweet compliment, it isn’t about writing being on par with anyone else. Just writing what you just did...how you felt when you sit quietly in your yard. Didn’t that feel good to put that down?
Yes. I am a pondering person. But there isn’t any special or necessary value in that. It probably drives some people insane. Since quitting smoking I seem to write more. Mostly just thoughts that come into my head and stuff I wonder about. Writing is a way of doing it out loud. It is a way to let out some passion I guess. Like I said...maybe it is just what smoking suppressed. Instead of going off and thinking things while smoking I write some of out. So, essentially, it is mostly natter.
Thank you for the support. I appreciate it. Just trying to stay in the very present moment lately. Anything else right now is...too much. Been listening to music and walking. Reading a lot. Trying to navigate our new “normal” world and just kind of glide through it all as unscathed as possible, and with as little foot print as possible.
So glad you are here and so happy to see your progress too. And your hubby! So good. To us and wearing out time, yes?
To us! I'm happy to wear out my time with you. I think that smoking suppressed some of my creativity. My photography has greatly improved. I kind of think that I'm more in the moment now. Like you, I love music and reading. I have been reading the Canterbury tales--i love classic literature. Suddenly I feel like I have much more time on my hands and am more motivated to keep myself busy. I'm more engaged with how I feel. This is such a weird thing to go through. It's empowering in a weird sort of way. I'm not really sure how to describe it other than I'm learning more about how I think about things, how I see things. I think I might be getting to know myself in a different sort of way. How can smoking change my perspectives and behaviors in such a way?
I have a lot of thoughts on that. The simple answer for me is that the nicotine level drops, the addict wants a fix, so the rest of our mind kind of tunes out and goes into seeking mode to satisfy the kicking screaming teenager?? So...as we start to tune that part out more when we quit, or whatever method we use to quiet it, we are more aware of the other parts of our minds that we largely ignored before because everyone knows it is pretty darn hard to ignore a kicking screaming teenager, right?!
Yeah...smoking suppresses lots of stuff. Not just nicotine cravings.
Man...I just wrote this huge reply that I actually ended up apologizing at the end for the length of it and hit post and instead of posting it POOFED and is gone! Argh. What ever. I’m off to walk now as the sun sets, (Vampire!) so am not gonna try to recreate it. Will see if it is here tomorrow and if not, will see if I can remember what I wrote and try again. Who knows. Maybe it is somewhere else!
Mmmm. All creatures are amazing to me. Seriously? There really hasn’t been one I’ve encountered that doesn’t fascinate me and set my mind off on some trajectory or another. Yup. Even those tremendous cock roaches that are in the South when I lived there, you know the 3 inch long ones that fly? Not that I’d want one on me, but they certainly don’t mortify me or gross me out. Not like some people do! Lol!
Somewhere along the line, my daughter has developed this irrational fear of spiders. I’ve not told her, but I find it disheartening and sad. Hope she grows out of it. I usually just let them be if they are in the house but now I have to catch them and put the, out when she is here.
So, yes...the SE coastal beaches, particularly the barrier islands, are pretty amazing. I used to camp a lot by myself. Went to a place once off the coast of Georgia called Cumberland Island. I missed the Ferry, but there was a guy with a boat that did private runs out for cheap so I did that. Oh man. Most memorable boat ride in my life. These Dolphins swam along side, frolicking and chattering. Those adorable perpetual smiles they seem to have. I knew then it was gonna be a memorable trip. There is some structure there, famous in it’s own way, but mostly the island is actually National Wildlife Refuge. The camp sites are 100% primitive, a long hike in, and very far apart. You have to walk a bit to get water and it is not what most people can get past their nose to drink. But...ahhh...the beach. Nothing like it. All refuge and protected sea turtle nesting site. To walk along there at night, along that white sand...knowing what is just out there in the water. That whole wondrous and thriving and near celestial part of the planet. My mind and heart could just wander for hours even now thinking about it and remembering those nights I spent there.... I’d give about anything to go back Right. Now.
At night I got out of my tent and had my little head lamp on and there on the ground were thousands of these tiny tiny spots of iridescent green lights. Almost the color of fireflies, but so tiny. And all over the ground. Not hovering and floating. So I got down on all 4s to see if I could figure out what they were as they moved. You won’t believe this, but, they were the reflections of thousand of tiny spider’s eyes in my head lamp! Well, of course I ended up afraid to move because they were everywhere and then all I could think about was how my moving and stepping was inevitably going to...yes...squish some. I felt in that moment so very out of place and invasive. It hurt my heart. They were so precious, and who knows what role they have in that fragile ecosystem.
Yeah. There is some amazing stuff to notice.
I could see the Northern Lights where I grew up. Not as spectacular as they are from other places certainly, but still, with an otherworldly air and presence enough to make me know it isn’t all about us humans. Hmmm.
So...sorry so long. Will write about this Kombucha soon. Yes! The effervescence is unlike other drinks for sure! So glad you noticed that!!! That SCOBY is a living thing and that special process makes the bubbles different and exceptionally peculiar, yes? None of that CO2 cartridge BS in my drinks! It is just about being patient and letting the process roll.
I did learn that cigarette smoke is BAD for SCOBYs. Yeah...how about that. Read about it today. Added it to my list of reasons to stay quit!
Good Morning Lore..
Laughed about you accidentally nuking your post....just like I did on your PM the other day. Lol. Great minds.
Before I forget I must mention the tarantulas you mentioned in the desert when you were laying on the car hood watching stars in the desert!! So wild you mentioned them because I have one living in a back flower bed. He came out a few weeks ago so I have been trying not to disturb him. This is only the 3rd one I have seen out here in like 24 years? Anyway I figure they were here first.....
ok your SPIDER EYES story on the beach bordered on a syfy film ( of which is another of my addictions btw). What a visual of speaks of day glo green eyes looking at you!!! Whoa. Do you think it was the light of the moon or the headlamp that caused that? Did you look them up? All looking up at you alone at the beach!! Very Twilight Zone! Wonder what those little eyes were saying other than don’t squish us? Eerie.
I loved camping but never on the beach. Can’t stand sand on me. I’m the kind of person who races around and doesn’t even know when I’m bruised or cut but then can’t stand the feel of grainy sand. Weird.
Ohhhhhhh you could see the Northern lights growing up??? Toooooooo amazing. Sigh. Ok the explanation about SCOBY makes sense. The fizz felt so different because it is ALIVE. That’s almost kind of freaky........ but so true.
Had a very relaxing glide through soft water swim last night. Totally in a zone at sunset. Been recuperating from major wind storms for 3 nights. 40mph winds, enough rain to half fill up dry pond (dog swimming pool...(.they won’t play in their plastic one), picking up brush, cleaning pool, recovering from tooth breaking!! Now I know where the pain was coming from last few weeks. So been kind of crazy around here!!!
Happy 4 months my sweet girl....put you on the milestones. Will PM soon
Have a blessed smoke free day!