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I just watched videos of them blowing up that whale. So gross. It was ODOT though and not Fish and Wildlife...sorry I blamed them. Guess it stunk pretty bad and a huge piece flying smashed a car some ways away. They have a newer video with the original reporter on the phone talking about it. Hilarious. Now I want to know how often does a dead whale actually wash ashore? The things one reads about with morning coffee!
Daughter and I saw a Sea Lion that had washed up on the beach when she was about 5. The look of horrified fascination on that child’s face. I have pictures of that. The smell was absolutely horrendous. Smells pretty bad to get pooped on by a Seagull by the way. That happened to her last summer when we were in Victoria with Pat’s mom. Took us a bit to figure out what the smell was and why it was following us. OMG. You could still smell it after her shower. She has PTSD now about birds pooping from above and is always looking up and warning me when we walk if there is a bird on wire. Must be what Seagulls eat as that was very bad.
Ok. So seems my mind didn’t wander to quite this many strange places when I smoked...? Not that I’m gonna start again, but it seems I recall having more “blankness “ in the morning. Which isn’t necessarily good. So I just read about why a dead whale would wash ashore. Which led me to articles about these poor whales that have lost their fluke and this scientist that follows them and documents their tailless lives. Think I better go back to bed and wake up and go see John. Just heard about another Agave bloom in SW PDX from my Nursery friend. So funny as the last one is only about half a mile from his house and he hadn’t seen it yet when I emailed him the pictures. He isn’t sure where exactly the new one is, just the general area. Think I’ll plan a nice long walk after a nap and make it a quest. Take some snacks and all that. Gotta get my mind off of dead and maimed whales as it is getting depressing. These long stretches of days off are both a blessing and a curse for me.... Maybe new Agave photo coming with a little luck. If not maybe at least the most recent one has full blooms now.
Very well said. I am not of that age or total amount of years smoking but your'e right, we can't be in denial. Still it is good to quit at any time. It sucks that we always have to keep our guards up but there it is. I will go to the link and read it. How are you doing?
Im doing pretty good. I just walked for over 3 hours and didn’t find the Agave I was told about. So...perhaps the quest will continue tomorrow. Right now I think I need a nap and some Kombucha but in the other order. I’ve found if I have something with a bit of caffeine and then lay down right away for about 30 minutes the caffeine kicks in and I wake up feeling really good! Yes...another addictive drug. One I never ever intend to give up either. It’s good for you in proper amounts.
So yeah, read the link to the guideline and don’t quote me as I last night blamed the wrong people for blowing up a whale so maybe I’m not to be trusted with quoting things right now. That ability should return but it appears to be on hiatus. Also confirmed as according to daughter who seems to recall I told her to get “whatever she wants” with my card she took to the store to get essential oils and spent like $60. So yeah. Brain fog?
Yes...addiction. I’ve always thought it funny how a large amount of people will talk with disdain of the heroin user while they themselves are standing there with a cigarette dangling between their fingers. Hmmm. I do believe it is a physiological brain process that is susceptible to a plethora of substances, legal or not. And of course we have attached many emotions to it! For a long time. So...the rewiring process is not undone quickly, and likely not wholly. Or Holy. Ha! I will say...some of my language I’ve used in this quit process proves the not Holy part for sure. Some of my fleeting thoughts involving strangulation are also a testament to that....nobody I know personally so I doubt I will be in prison requesting cigarettes on Sundays. Actually...I can’t really imagine I’d ever physically harm anyone. Over quitting smoking.
So daughter got me this Black Peppercorn oil that is supposed to help with not wanting to smoke. I think you mix it with other stuff. I will leave my little Apothecarist to the lab with it and let you know how it works! She also got me a tiny bottle of some locally produced Redwood Oil which is just to die for. So later I’ll take my walk smelling like a tree. Makes me think of Maleficent’s guard from the movie. The huge strong tree dude. Loved him. Fittingly called Balthazar. Was wanting to call daughter that if she had turned out to be a boy, but her dad said no. He never was much fun or very imaginative.
Also...the best thing may be that daughter also picked me up a bottle of the Kombucha that Peggy loves that is Tart Cherry!
So...there you go. I’m good. Didn’t smoke today so a good day so far. How are you???
Hey Lovely Lady...
Just read about Laura on her way in and is Category 4 over the Gulf. Article said it may even reach Category 5 by the time it hits land. Whoa. I’m very happy you are where you are. Even a 4 or a 3 is going to be so bad with Covid mixed in. Katrina hit as a 3 and was devastating.
The article spoke about all the shipping channels coming inland and how it has turned the water brackish over the years, thus killing all the trees that would have offered some protection and causing a lot of erosion. It was pretty involved in the science of it and this is over simplification and of course is just one of many factors involved...
My heart and prayers go out tonight to the folks in Texas and Louisiana. There gonna need a lot of that and a lot of intervention from the Government after this.
Stay safe Peggy and I hope all your family and friends are as well.
ok, no pelicans. I was curious about that. I can’t stand that they blew up that whale!!! I mean I get it but it’s still sad. I would love to see all the wild beauty of that coastline someday. The atmosphere is probably so different!! The coolness alone of the water in the summer fascinates me.
I was up over 48 hours, could not sleep. Had to stay up to watch the coverage of Hurricane Laura, had a zoom bible study, and we got fabulous rain finally...remnants of Marco. Have not checked to see the progress today of Laura...but the high winds were going to continue up to Shreveport , LA and Little Rock, AR. This is one of the bigger ones. The evacuees that were bused into DFW are being given hotel rooms this time to help with COVID as opposed to all going to one facility.
I am so sorry my sweet about stepson leaving. I do know that ache in your heart. You guys got to spend quality time together and that is a blessing! Yes, bittersweet.
I like that “thinking about smoking” day. Usuallly those days I can reframe into thinking days...but that day had overtures of physical crave....boo. Gone now, finally got decent sleep.
My free weights are coated with something that is water resistant. Probably not suppose to be used in water but I have for 3 years and they are fine. Pool noodles can be used for resistance exercises, leaned on to do kicks, used like a jump rope for pikes (crunching up your body and jumping over it underwater). Did not get in last night because of the rain last night. Weather from Laura will hit East Texas and Dallas but will not likely make it this far west. Anxious to see the sky tonight!!
Hi to Calvin, Maisy, Hugums and wirey dog..can’t call him demon dog...lol. My two are excited I am finally awake!!
Hugs to you and all the warriors
Lol...poor thing!! I did not know it smelled that bad. Have not had the pleasure of that experience but totally get the PTSD. I still get a little paranoid about low flying birds since a mockingbird dive bombed my hair jogging one time. Eeeek
Ok...just nuked another post to you! What am I doing to do that? Ack!
I know I said I was glad to hear from you and see your ok. Not sure if the rest will show up so am gonna go and do my dishes and write more later!
Birds... I’m so envious at times. Not for the dive bombing (well, maybe!) or the pooping on people part, but the soaring. The views and perspectives. Mmmm. Yeah...Gull poop smell is horrific. We still laugh about it. Couldn’t figure out where the smell was coming from as it just kept following us. Then she crossed in front of me and I noted a big white splotch on the back of her head with her then pink hair. Ugh. When I first moved here to this house 4 years ago and commenced to removing the grass out front I made friends with a crow. I was out there for days, painstakingly digging small patches with a shovel and pitting the shovel underneath and then tearing out the small patches with my hands. At first I thought he came to eat worms. There weren’t too many of those though and I figured out he was just curious. They have that funny little way of hopping around with their head cocked at an angle, the pose itself asking the questions and no vocal sound needed. So about 3 days in I put some dry cat food in my pocket and went out to work and waited. Sure enough after just a few minutes he comes down from the wire and lands about 10 feet away. So I started tossing kibble. Thought to myself “uh-oh..he probably has friends and family”. It remained just the one though. Over the course of a couple of weeks it got to where I would go out and he was on the ground waiting for me. Would flap his good morning and I’d say hi back. One day he wasn’t there right when I went out. I was sad. After I got down on all 4’s to lift out another patch of verdant yuck, he lands right next to me with a gift. A dead mouse. Yeah. Now my kitties don’t go out as where I live. But I’ve had cats all my life and know very well about the treasures they will bring to the doorstep with that oh-so-proud of themselves look. I did not expect such a gift from a crow. He plops it down about a foot from me and struts around making that almost purring sound they can make, and keeps looking at me expectantly. So I gave him his kibbles and gently wrapped the mouse in a tissue I had in my pocket and carried it through the house out to the back deck. I wanted him to think I appreciated it, and I did really. I didn’t want to just leave it and felt he should see me take it. Didn’t appreciate so much hiding the mouse on the back deck until he flew off and then burying it, but I so appreciated that gesture. Thought it was funny how others never showed up with him and it made me want to know his full story. Whatever it is or was, I realize I was just a chapter in his book of life. We went on to be friends the rest of the year and I’d take some kibble out when I left early in the morning to go to work and couldn’t spend my day out there. It was nice to have the company as that was an arduous task removing that grass. Yeah...birds are funny.
The whale. Yes, sad. That was a while ago. I think they felt compelled to dispose of it due to it’s proximity of the town and the pending stench and such if left to decompose naturally. Found some interesting information reading about it. There was another one a few years ago only that washed up and the folks from the Aquarium dealt with it differently. They cut it up and kept the skeleton for a museum at the Aquarium. Haven’t been down there for a few years so I’m not sure if it is on display yet. They have what is called the “Octocam” and I watch that periodically. The always have a Giant Pacific Octopus they house and I like watching what he/she gets up to after the people go home. It’s the best way to see them really. When I first quit smoking watching the Octocam was a great and relaxing distraction. The mind can really wander while doing that and they are always more active at night when I really needed a distraction. There are live cameras to watch Earth from afar too.
Then there is the Black Pepper essential oil! Yeah! It is good! So daughter made me this little vial with a cotton ball and a few drops of that and a few drops of Angelica. All you do is take the top off and a take a deep breath. Really nice and warming feeling. Also...I tried the Tart Cherry Kevita Kombucha. Now Peggy I owe you a big thanks for that one as it is my new favorite! I am gonna go to the “Crunchy Store” as Tiny calls it and get some organic dried Tart Cherries and use them for my second ferment on my next batch. Might add a little pepper and spice it up some on a few bottles and see how that is. Nice thing about making my own is the experimentation. I’m not out 3 buck or more a bottle if I don’t like it!
So, yes...if anyone is interested, Black Pepper essential oil does help with wanting to smoke.
I know a crunchy oil purveyor who sells pepper oil and you put just a drop on your tongue when you want to smoke. It reminds me of how in the past people who wanted to change a thought process would break open an ammonia capsule and smell it. Kind of like associating something "bad" with a "bad" thought or behavior. I won't go in to details because this isn't the right place for it but I will say in my work experience it appeared to be highly effective. I have tried a particular brand of the pepper oil and it tastes hot and awful at the same time. I pray that you got something a little more palatable for your purposes, you kombucha fiend, you.