That's it Lore new beginnings, time for some regrowth, took a pic of our national emblem this morning, see it in my Nope pledge, beautiful yellow blooms, spikes all over the plant, The Wattle. Went swimming this morning if you could call it that 40 min in the water floundering around like a jelly fish, anyway you can't smoke in the water, I've made myself really busy and that's helped with  the distraction side of things. I didn't use a lozenge this morning, the patch was enough, but my wife left her smokes out and I saw them and immediately had this inclination to smoke, I quickly put them in the cupboard and kept walking, i finished the lawn off and went down and bought a new pair of joggers, my reward for keeping on track.

Progress report:One day, 14 hours, 15 minutes and 59 seconds. 49 cigarettes not smoked, saving $61.63. Life saved: 4 hours, 5 minutes.

Kind regards

Anthony

Oh Tiny, I feel for you, without reasonable mental health quitting is so hard, and your not getting any sleep on top of that, with your back, use those painkillers short term if they do the job, I have all the symptoms you mentioned and I can understand what you are going through, Your husband sounds like a very caring human being, you are fortunate to have a partner who empathizes with you. I have heaps of support around me for issues like that, don't be afraid to reach out to the professionals, they have saved my life numerous times. If you don't smoke that's a bonus, smoking wouldn't help things, it never helps, find a good counselor and get things off your chest if that's what you need.

Maybe I'm out of line here, tell me if I am

Kind regards

Anthony

Fantastic! 
I saw that picture and it looks pretty. I’m going to read about it. Seems like Agave would grow in parts there. Such a fascinating land you live in Anthony. It’s funny how we tend to take for granted some things right around us. Couldn’t believe when I first moved to Seattle how many folks from there had either never been to Mt Rainer, or hadn’t been in twenty years. I soak up all these natural places around here as much as I can and as often as I can. Would love to soak some of them up around where you are, and someday I will!

Right...can’t smoke in the water! Strong work putting the smokes out of sight. Are you back to the 21mg patches? I stayed on those longer than what the box says. The step down was pretty hard the first few days and quite noticeable. It took some grit to get through that first few days of the 14mg. Didn’t notice the 7mg after that as much though. I also had some 4mg lozenges that I cut in half. Not sure if one is supposed to do that but it seemed to work fine and I didn’t want to waste them but 4 got too much. 
Im real sorry your wife isn’t there yet with quitting. That would be a tremendous difference for you. So...you have your Forum Family. You did like 10 weeks already, so, the Will is there. It will happen. 
Thanks for sharing the photo! Beautiful moon tonight here. Funny how it’s the same one you see, yes? And you will see it full before us I think. 
Have a wonderful day and sleep all you want!

Yes sometimes it feels like that, I don't know whether I'm coming or going half the time, but I keep pressing on, no use regretting that you didn't take opportunities when they presented themselve, lifes to short for regrets, so I would say chase that pebble

Take care Lore

Kind regards

Anthony

Oh yes...I live for snatching that pebble for sure! Life is quite grand but way too short. 
Seize the day Friend! It is all yours. 

Hi xvaper,

I have read Allen Carr three or four times now, I have the book and the web link, I find his approach very motivating he's a real salesman but I could never do cold turkey. 

I think the latest figures I saw were 60% of smokers die of a smoking related illness

I saw where you posted that you were finding it hard to manage your quit today, My advice is have a warm bath and relax then go to bed early and tomorrow is a new day, Remember H.A.L.T. Hungry Angry Lonely Tired, four reasons you are likely to have cravings.

Remember we are here for you, you helped me out.

Kind regards

Anthony

All's well here now Lore, I have to buy some patches in the next few days. Going to the Podiatrist to get fitted with orthotics tomorrow. and put in another walk, temperature is all over the place being Spring now, we've really had it for the last few weeks, Trust your quits going well you guys have set me back on the path to freedom...Yay

Kind regards

Anthony

Lore, your welcome here anytime the scenery is diverse, North of the Shoahaven River is the Sydney Basin with its unique flora and fauna and south of the Shoalhaven is relatively undeveloped area with lots of forest we call it bush here, but when my hip is repaired I plan to join the Bushwalkers Club and get out more often to places even I have not seen before... looking forward to that. I will stay on the 21 mg patch until I feel confident again.

 I'm looking forward to the next dark so I can take photos of the milky way

Take care

Anthony

Thank you so much Anthony. I prevailed yesterday. I hope today will be easier. I also watched this guy last night:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ME993nMUqPY

I have been watching quite a few of his videos last night, it helped. Have you watched this guy before?

What a beautiful story of love and determination, Tiny. You both rock!