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First 10 days review   General Chit-Chat

Started 5/6/20 by Musivore; 112331 views.
Loreficent

From: Loreficent

5/30/20

Knew I had to take either my music tonight, or stop and get smokes to go check. When I got there I was glad I hadn’t chosen to smoke...

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

6/4/20

Morning has broken, like the first word...

Hope for another smoke free day...?
Good job Portland. Good job. Together we are stronger in ALL things...

Here’s hope to no kind of smoke at the end of the day.
 

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

6/6/20

Today is D-Day.

Wow... when I think about the struggles in the past 76 years...

How far we have come in many ways, and how few steps we have taken in so many other ways, it is unsettling. We managed to be such a tremendous force and ally in the liberation of so many in a profound anti-fascist movement. Yet...we remain so profoundly accepting and unchanged in so many other ways. I’m left to wonder what advice those that died on the beaches of Normandy would have for us now? Would they raise their fists and cry for change? Would they be standing at the ready to be called to the streets on their own soil? 

Just because we quit smoking does not mean we must stop thinking. To all of those that fought before us, thank you. You have liberated me enough to make healthier choices for myself in many ways. 

Today John still stands and he gives me hope and peace as I continue on my journey as a warrior for, with, and against other demons, of which nicotine is only one of many. Perhaps in reality nicotine has so far been the most easily defeated. 
Whatever your battle today...stay strong and believe we are stronger together. 

livtoswim

From: livtoswim

6/8/20

well said! 

Your a very nice writer. 

Have a nice week

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

6/9/20

Thank you DJ. 

Mostly ramblings from a fellow addict, caught up in constant thought and reflection. Sometimes pertaining directly to smoking, sometimes indirectly, and sometimes not so much at all but coming from a need to express, often that which smoking suppressed. Never intended with malice. Always with the hope to provoke thought, inspire strength, console, or comfort...and largely to be taken as a distraction from smoking for others and distraction for and from myself as well.

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Elizaquits

From: Elizaquits

6/10/20

Lore, 

Beautiful. 

"For it is not, necessarily, the truth of memory that is important. It is but a picture of that which is needed."  This reminds me of Richard Hofstadter's "memory is the thread of personal identity, history of public identity". 

Have you finished the pack/ready to come back?

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

6/10/20


Hey thanks...I’ll have to read that.

Didnt finish, smoked 8 total and threw them away next morning. So...

Yeah, I’ll write more about it soon.

Thanks for checking in. You are doing great!

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

6/11/20

I did check on the Agave (aka: John) last night and he is STILL tall. So, glad to see. 
How you doing still off the patch? 

euknight

From: euknight

6/11/20

Ok got it, sweet Lori.

Your introspection transcends mine for sure but I can ( finally since the fog has cleared).  follow your musings; ever digging down searching for a root perhaps that keeps the weeds from coming up.

So all of that put aside, you were going to see your stepson to get the starter.  What transpired there?

You attended the protest in Portland.  What there?

Seems to me that D day (June 4 post) perhaps were the beginnings of planning the relapse.  Just throwing that out there.  Not trying to analyze, more about my own experience trying to connect. I just see a soft falling through space with your words starting there.  Btw....the greenery is spectacular there....such an amazing blend of texture.  I love that.

I am all too familiar with retreat and sadness, a pastime of mine I have to monitor like a vulture watching, watching to see if any of the moving mammals are dying so it can swoop down for a bite.  Yep.

So on this seesaw of joy and sorrow who will be the winner.  Sometimes the desire for smoke free joy is so hard to grasp.  What better way to celebrate?  Then there is sorrow.....always the most welcome partner to a smoke or 20.  That shadow world just has a way of welcoming in the smoke with open arms.  They once again masquerade as a long lost love and how appealing the escape.

How many other enemies have you welcomed in with open arms?  If like me, too many to count.  Let’s look at the triggers, sista, seriously.  Then perhaps a look at escapes that do not include 20 tobacco filled cylinders in a soft or hard backed box?  I have admitted to myself no matter how many memories, hurts, experiences I have addressed I have to have escapes.  For me it just can not be cigarettes anymore.  I just can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror as a smoker.  I can’t.  I can’t

Im here for you if you want to look deeper anytime.  I am also here to talk about nothing and everything.  No doubt you are recovering from the battle wounds.  That is a good thing.  The skin grows back healthier than before and you keep doing what works for you smoke free.  Do not surrender to the enemy.  There are so many here that have your back.  Rest and take care of your own, please?  We are not going anywhere.

Hugs,

Peggy

5-8-20

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