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Sorry to hear you’ve had some bad craves today and well done for staying strong. It’s funny how some days are fine and others really not when quitting. Was there a particular trigger?
Your boat and sailing plans sound so wonderful! I also laughed out loud about ending up cold, wet and divorced (I’m sure that won’t happen). I love going for a swim off the boat, it feels like such an adventure. A few years ago I went sailing in the Hebrides and swam ashore to Tobermory harbour - when I arrived on land a little boy asked his mum “why is that lady wet?” :)
Thanks for your kind words about nursery and mummy guilt. You’re right it works for both me and my daughter so not much point worrying about it!
Love the story of you having crisps and ice cream for breakfast in your dressing gowns - lockdown anarchy! I’ve found my bedtime getting earlier and earlier - sometimes it’s 9.30 and I feel like I’m done.
I saw on the March thread some of your old quit buddies we’re on here to mark their 3 years. I hope it wasn’t too hard to see that (as well as being happy for them of course). What matters is you’re a non-smoker now (and forever amen!)
Sending positive vibes your way,
4th March 2017
Thanks Anthony, and I hope you're right. I don't want to speak too soon but at the moment I feel very glad to be a non-smoker. The cravings are annoying and difficult, but so far I haven't got close to actually going to buy tobacco. I hope it stays that way.
I love that picture too! Very calm and peaceful, and the view goes on forever. Glad to hear the trauma therapy helped so much. My son is currently having EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing) sessions. It's still very early days, but he's definitely learning some useful techniques to calm himself which he can use outside the sessions too.
I hope the rain stops for you soon!
Thanks for your confidence in me, Jeff, but I do sometimes feel as if I've lost my best friend. I just have to remember that he/she was a terrible friend, that they were going to kill me in the end, and that I never want to see them again!
You're right too though - I AM happy to be smoke-free; it's just something I'm having to work on to keep feeling that way. Which shouldn't be a surprise, really. No-one said this would be easy, and I'm still determined to keep doing the work. But I think it's fair to say that some days are easier than others
How are you doing? You can do this too, of course!
Thank you, Tanya, and glad you're still here too. Wow, those statistics are amazing, aren't they? Over a hundred dollars and a day of life for every week you stay smoke free. Here's to carrying on!
Yes, it's strange isn't it - some days I feel overjoyed and miles away from smoking; other days it's just a bit of a grim old plod through the bleakness.
I do know what the trigger was yesterday - I had to write a potted history of my son's problems for an assessment he'll be having, and it just made me so sad. I was also on my own at home, and even though Mike isn't pressuring me to stay quit, I'd be lying if I said that the thought that I could get away with it didn't cross my mind at all. Luckily, by the time the little voice started talking about how I could brush my teeth and change my clothes afterwards, I recognised it as junky thinking and had a shower instead. I don't think I was actually close to doing it - I don't WANT to smoke, lie to my partner, and "get away with it" (thank goodness!) but even having that horrible, sneaky little thought made the day harder. I'm much better today, and very glad of that.
I have never swum off a boat, and I can't wait! Well actually I can - some people may actually like getting into freezing-cold water but I'm thinking August at the earliest; maybe even September. I have The Fear already! I'm very impressed by the fact that you even did it in the Hebrides - that's pretty hardcore. Are you sure the little boy didn't actually say "why is that lady mad?"
Re. nursery and mummy guilt, I think that you can feel better than just not worrying about it. It gives your daughter a chance to socialise and learn in a way that - no matter how good a parent you are, and I have no doubt at all that you are a completely fab mum - she can't get from you and your husband. It's actually a positively good thing. And it gives you some time to yourself, which is good for your work and self-esteem, and enables you to recharge your batteries so you can be even more completely fab when she comes home. I'm sure you know this already, but thought I'd say it just in case!
Seeing my old quit buddies make three years wasn't too hard, but thank you for thinking of that. I'm sad that I didn't make it through with them (well, kicking myself really, because I lost that quit through sheer drunken stupidity rather than being desperate to smoke again) but even more than being happy for them, it's a real inspiration - a lesson in what you can achieve when you just keep plodding on and piling up the days. Some of them had a much harder time quitting than I did too, but look at them now! Like you, all of them are so happy and thankful to be where they are. It's lovely to see, but - more selfishly - it's also very reassuring: the peace really does come!
So I am a non-smoker now (and forever amen ), and thank you for the positive vibes. I'm sending the same to you, and hope you're snoozing peacefully as I write.
I am enjoying following your days! Hope that’s ok It’s fabulous how you and Katie have made friends and support each other with life things, and motherhood, and thoughts of swimming and wildlife thieving and other such exchanges and support.
I have been reading this book, and for some reason, different things in it will make me think of certain folks on here. Usually there isn’t an apparent correlation or specific reason that I’m aware of, just a thought of someone. I’ll paste an excerpt here of a part that made me think of you. In a positive and hopeful way. Perhaps the wisdom to it...anyway, hope it finds you well! It is from the E book on the WhyQuit website, under a chapter titled “Pack Patience”.
“If we insist on seeing and measuring victory only in terms of "stopping forever," then on which day do we allow ourselves to celebrate? Why wait until dead to celebrate? Who's coming to that party? Instead, consider adopting a recovery philosophy that invites celebration each and every day.
And try not to see this recovery as being in competition with earlier attempts. Although I've remained 100 percent nicotine-free since May 15, 1999, if we both stay 100% free today, your day's worth of freedom will have been no longer, shorter, or less real than mine.
We'll also remain equals in being just one hit of nicotine away from relapse. And when our heads hit our pillows tonight we'll both have achieved a full and complete victory today.”
Of COURSE that's ok! You were one of the first people who messaged me this time, and I think of you as a sort of wise and benevolent fairy godmother who always seems to know the right thing to say.
Case in point: the excerpt from the WhyQuit book. I HAVE been comparing my quit to others' and my own previous attempts, feeling like a newbie again, and wondering if this quit really is going to be the one, so it's incredibly helpful to think of it in a different way - that everyone's smoke-free day is of equal value no matter how long they've been quit, and even more importantly that we are all just one hit away from relapse.
And I really love the line "when our heads hit our pillows tonight we'll both have achieved a full and complete victory today" - that is so very inspiring, and also a reminder to take this one day at a time. I do get scared at the idea of 'never' or 'forever'.
I'm just wondering, do you do Tarot readings? I only ask because someone I know used to do it professionally for a Premium Rate telephone company (and for fun at parties). She was really, spookily good at it, but she said that it had very little to do with the cards - they were just a vehicle for tuning in to the person. So as I say, I was just wondering :)
Yes, Katie is a real tower of strength to me at the moment - she also seems to know exactly the right thing to say at the right time. I hope she doesn't mind me saying this (Hi Katie!) but she really reminds me of my daughter - clever, nobody's fool, resilient, and above all kind.
Hope you're having a great day, Lore, and thank you for the support and encouragement. I'm in fine fettle today - an easy one, thank goodness, with sunshine and contentment in place of grey skies and angst. I wish they were all like that, but I'll be plodding on regardless.
Oh Suzy! So happy you found some good there. I take a lot of comfort in that too. Our world is chaos most of the time and we so easily get caught up in the past or future. We so easily lose sight of the one true thing we have which is the moment we are in. Yes, we are all only in this day, one at a time, and my smoke free day is worth nothing more or less than anyone else’s. The only competition you have love is yourself and this quit. Does someone running a race start with fear because they didn’t come in first the last race? No. They set their sights on the race they’re in and stay focused on the one they are running. So...here we are, running together. This race today. Tonight, yes, we will put our heads on our pillows, Victors! Yay!
Ahhh...Tarot. Funny you ask. I love the cards, though some used to scare me. I’m a Runes gal actually. For fun only. I also have an I Ching and those funny coins, but I’ve not fiddled with it for many years. It was too abstract for me and I do best with staying present. It has taken practice but has been best for anxiety to just...stay present.
Yes, Katie is a wonderful source of support for all of us! Love the stories of her daughter (Hi Katie!) and they bring back memories. Mine just turned 18 and I still fret over some of the things Katie is presently worried about. I recall very clearly when mine was her daughter’s age and having so much trepidation about the teen years. Katie...if you’re reading this... it is apparent you are a very good Mum! Don’t worry about what’s down the road. Trust yourself and follow your heart and she will be ok. You have to trust her too. Don’t spend any of the precious time you have now though worrying about it. Just keep doing your best and know each day you plant a little seed, water it some with some love, be her sunshine and support as you are and watch her grow. You are doing just as you ought, and doing just fine!
Nice you’ve had some reprieve of sunshine! I e got rain presently, which is beckoning me to nap. So...I will! Yes...we plod on regardless and that itself makes it all very grand. I wish I were as close to the beach as you!
Thanks for your message - they’re always so nice to receive :)
I’m sorry writing the history of your son’s difficulties made you sad - I can well imagine. I’ve been through a few assessments in my time, mostly for therapy, and it’s so hard being confronted with everything all at once but also because it’s essentially a form-filling exercise there’s nowhere for all the feelings it stirs up to go. At least you know it’s all towards getting him support, for things to change and improve.
It’s completely understandable the thought that you could ‘get away’ with smoking would pop into your head, and so brilliant you were able to just acknowledge that thought for what it is and go for a shower instead. I think once I realised that nothing could actually *make* me smoke then I felt less uptight about having thoughts about smoking. However much old Nic might shout and stamp his foot, you have the final say - a great big NOPE!
Also remember on the really hard days when craves feel strongest you’re making extra strides in your quit - rewiring all those old brain pathways that we created as smokers.
Ah I saw you and Lore (hi Lore!) wrote some really lovely things about me in your messages <blushes> There’s such a nice supportive group going on here and I’m so glad to be a part of it. And even though I’m on here to give back and help others quit smoking, I’m really getting a lot of support back too - especially words of encouragement from you other mummies.
Thanks Lore for sharing that you also used to worry about your daughter’s teenage years - I’ll trust that I’ll know what’s best (or in the top three!) when we cross that bridge.
And thank you Suzy for what you said about my daughter’s nursery - on a good day I do know those things but it helps to have someone else remind me. I definitely love reconnecting with her on Wednesdays - our girls day together. She stroked two dogs in the park today and couldn’t stop giggling. Ahh simple pleasures...
September swimming in the sea sounds perfect - it will have warmed up over the summer. I think it was pretty chilly in the Hebrides - luckily there’s plenty of porridge round there for warming up after.
Does your boat have a name? And does it need stuff doing?
How many days are you on now? I’m losing count :)
Keep going, you’re doing brilliantly!
Quit 4th March 2017