Got through day 2. Feeling a bit unsure about tomorrow, but I’m hopeful. I have a cross stitch project I want to make for one of my daughter’s teachers and I don’t want to work on it when I smell like smoke. I plan to get back to work on it tomorrow and hopefully that will help me some. My daughter is a senior, so this is my last chance to get it made. 
I was definitely a bit snappy tonight. No one in my family talks about me quitting. I asked my husband in the past to simply check in with me each night, so I’ll know that if I smoke, I won’t be able to hide it from him. I don’t understand why he is so resistant to doing that. Am I asking too much? I ended up asking my friend to check in with me, but she didn’t know I’d been smoking again and completely freaked out. She was crying and a bit hysterical. I won’t be telling her I slipped up and started again. 
Hoping I wake up confident for my third day. Stretches and cross stitch will be my crutches. A long with candies. Lots of candies, perhaps.

Jenny

Hi Jenny. Cross stitching did it for me. It's hard to think of smoking when your concentrating on your work. Have a stack of finished work. Now have to frame them all. Another project. I quit on July 4th. Independence day. I'm retired now and wished I never started this nasty addiction. Your still young and have a family. Just take one day at a time. Good luck with your quit.

Jenny... You are doing great. You are managing your emotions about your husband's lack of interest and your friend freaking out well. Good for you. You did not smoke. Good on you! Cross stitching sounds good. It will keep your hands busy. For me, exercise is working. I am still using 6 lozenges a day but it is a big improvement from using 12 a day. Let us continue to share and support one another!

Hi Jenny,

You are doing great and hopefully had a wonderful day working on that cross stitch project.  When I quit I thought my daughter would be so happy for me but it was like she really didn't care or thought I wouldn't stay quit.  I also think she was disappointed in me for even smoking in the first place, even though it was over 25 years before she even came into the world.  I'm saying this because maybe your husband is just afraid if he gets his hopes up, he might be disappointed.  It's really hard for a non-smoker to understand what it is like to go through this and the level of effort it takes.  At first it was just exhausting for me to get through the day battling the cravings and resisting the triggers.  Go to the people that support you even if they may be virtual in this forum.  I can't even imagine I would have been successful without my quit buddies here.  Sure I had friends here but most of them are smokers and I think they were even secretly jealous of me succeeding (including my husband who still smokes).  You can do this my friend...just take it one day at a time and come here and vent and post all the feelings, struggles and accomplishments you have.  That is exactly what the forum is for.  Even if you just post "Yay I made it through another day smoke free!" and get the kudos you deserve for that.

This is so encouraging Cindi. I am not at a quit with the lozenges yet, but I feel good reducing to 6 a day from 12 a day. Some days I have 7. Some days I have 5. But I am  averaging 6 a day. I don't know if I will ever be home free, but my anxiety has really gone down now, so at this point I am really happy!

Hi Jerthie,

You're doing great.  Going down from 12 is a huge accomplishment.  I never tried lozenges but it has to be better than smoking with less of the harmful chemicals.  Keep trying to reduce when you can.  You may have posted this already, but have you talked to your doctor about the anxiety?  Maybe they can recommend something to help you with that.

Keep up the great work.

Stay strong Jenny. It's worth the effort. The nicotine is out of your system in 3-4 days.

Paul

Cindi, thank you so much for your insight. I think that’s probably why my husband doesn’t give a lot of support. He really is amazing in so many ways and very much so doesn’t want me to smoke. I was confused by why I can’t get him to even check in every night about my quit, but it makes more sense now. I know it’s disappointing for me when I lose a quit, so I’m sure it is for him, too. 

I made it through day 3!

Thank you Cindi. Like I said, I feel pretty good. I do see a psychiatrist who prescribes medication for my bipolar disorder. The anxiety is not so much illness based, but due to my relationship life. I am seeing a relationship counsellor soon. I have a consultation tomorrow morning. I do need help. Closing the door temporarily on a relationship that was causing the amxiety has helped. Going for walks has also been therapeautic! Day by day. This forum helps me a lot too. Thank you again for your kind words!