Do it!!! Ditch those lozenges, they are only preventing you from making a clean break from your dependance on nicotine...which is totally what all the nicotine replacement stuff does (lozenges, patches, incremental pills, etc). Anything with any amount of nicotine in it will continue to sabotage your attempts to break free of this insane, unhealthy addiction. That's why for me, with this quit time, I've bern so angry to have ever thought that having "just one" wouldn't effect me...ha!! Not going to go down that path anymore. So, you know what you need to do in order to quit.....make the break

Thanks for the affirmation

Thank you Karen. I will see if I can do it, and keep you all posted. Have a nice night all.

Zezette I appreciate hearing your story. I'm coming up on 2 years quit, after nearly 50 years of smoking with some long periods of quitting in there. For me the difference in this quit was that I admitted that I'm an addict. Just like alcoholics and drinking, when I don't smoke I am giving myself a daily reprieve. I adopted n.o.p.e. as my mantra, and sure enough, almost 2 years in I rarely even think of smoking. When I do, I remind myself of everything I've learned on this forum, and I tell myself nope. Because it is so hard to quit this horrible addiction, this is a great forum to share our difficulties. But I also like to talk about the amazing freedom that comes about when you get that monkey off your back. Freedom from the guilt that comes with the knowledge that you're poisoning yourself, freedom from worrying about where and when you can feed your addiction, freedom from the high cost of cigarettes!  Anyway Zezette, letters like yours remind me that I can't be complacent. I wish you well in your quit. You can do this!

Martha

Hey you!

  Good to see you back. I am in Oregon, and we are stuck with those fires every year. It sucks. The govt never wants to help. Anyway, I can't believe it was in Chicago. That must have been crazy. 

Hope you are well.

Mercy

Hey Jerthie,

  Good going on the weight loss. I lost 15 pounds over the last 6 months. I am going for more.

I hope you are doing good.

Mercy

Hey Anthony,

  Glad it was just a hiccup, but try not to diminish how serious it is. Those chemicals mess with your head.

Love ya,

Mercy

Well said and can relate!  I am into my 7th week after foolishly not following n.o.p.e. Smoked for about the same time as you with similar episodes of quitting and then going back. You nailed it with your points about the feeling of being a non smoker....mainly this uphoric feeling of freedom every single day! I continue to nurture my quit when needed with reading this forum and just remembering how stinking hard it is to start over and this sustains me quite well. The admitting that I am an addict reinforces my conscience allowing me to understand and accept that I cannot EVER have just one. Thanks for your post

Thanks Mercy. Wow, 15 pounds, don't lose too much though. I am happy at this weight now yay! But tbh, if I put it back on, oh well, there are other things in life to keep my mind busy and happy! I am still using the losenges. Some days I use 6, some days 12. Seems to be a pattern for me. Yesterday I asked my colleague for a smoke. She gave me the keys to her car and said, have 2 or 3 if you want. When I walked into her car, I knew that I wouldn't touch them. And I didn't. I stayed in her car for 10 minutes, praying. I walked out of her car having not smoked, but she asked me when I came in if I felt better. I just said, Yea I do. I lied because I didn't want to go into a weird story of how I prayed off a cigarette instead of smoking it. I can pray off a losenge as well. I love to pray. Today I have had 7. My colleagues regularly ask me if I want to smoke and kind of encourage me to, to take off the edge of pressure that work can bring. I always say no, except for yesterday. But I can't explain my feelings from yesterday. I know I am far from being a teenager, but I felt a bit peer pressured lol, hence why I pretended that I had one when I didn't. The minute I sat in her car and smelled the smoke, and saw the packet with the lighter, I knew I wouldn't. It was kind of weird. I hope you have a good night Mercy, and keep on rocking your quit. You are doing so well! Night forum family.

Thank you for your story. Praying is a tool I use and I believe that it is my best one. Giving my fight with this addition to God helps me get release. I no longer have to worry about how I am going to make it though. As long as I don't get in God's way I am okay.

Mercy