Enjoy the holiday Turtles.. sounds lovely! I imagine that tan goes beautiful with your NOPE...LOL!   Have a wonderful time.  Cheryl

Hi Anthony,

Good to see you still working to make it happen. 

Best wishes as always.

(((Hugs)))

Hi Overdoz,

Kicked back today had a lazy day with an afternoon nap, Hitting the mints with a vengeance. sunny day blue skies cool at night, 6th day.

Kind regards

Anthony

Thanks Dee

Kind regards

Anthony

Cruising today, sounds like you are in control turtles. I'm a big fan of the cool water, stops me from raiding the fridge, Hahaha

Kind regards

Anthony

PS bought a new pair of joggers yesterday

Been hitting my bicycle getting around, i can smell the flowers and fragrances, im on day 5, 

Just trying to keep active to burn off weight, they say its easier in the summer, but we have to be careful these bbq's here and too many hot dogs, but more important is to stay active

Have a nice day.. Cool at night sounds pretty good, but we have to make the best of it, no matter what the circumstances.

I have an overwhelming fear of quitting again.  I feel terrible when I do and can't get past it.  I am a rage monster and the NRT options don't seem to work for me.  I posted something in a new post with lots of detail, but honestly, I almost feel like it's not worth the struggle.  I'm 40 and every time I think of making what should be a positive change a little voice in my head says, "nah, you are at an age where you can just let yourself go".  It's frustrating.  Any advice on anger issues and the feeling of fear and helplessness would be much appreciated.

Don, first welcome!!

I am 50 and taking the first steps toward quitting, so I am closer to letting myself go than you. That voice is the nicotine keeping you in its grasp. Don't give in, fight it, you are stronger than your urges and the hold nicotine has on you. Have you thought about medications? I am using chantix and well I have no cravings, no anger issues, I do get tense like once a day but I can easily redirect myself. The fact that you are here shows you want to quit, you can do this and we are here to help you along the way.

Welcome to the forum, Don! I was afraid to quit smoking when I came to the forum. I had smoked for 40 years and tried quitting numerous times. With the information and support I received here, I'll be celebrating six years next month.

I was afraid I would fail again. I was also afraid of what would happen if I didn't quit. Here's an article you may find helpful.

Verywell Mind

Why Are You Afraid to Quit Smoking?

There is no downplaying the fact that quitting cigarettes is tough. But we often set ourselves up for failure by ignoring the tools we need to stop smoking.

Read more from Verywell Mind

I'm not going to candy coat it. Quitting smoking is hard. Nicotine is one of the most addictive substances on earth. Quitting is a process. It takes time.  Some of that time can feel like an emotional rollercoaster.

BUT, it is absolutely worth it. There comes a day when you realize you haven't thought about smoking all day. There's more good news. As soon as you put out your last cigarette, your body begins to heal.

Verywell Mind

Changes Occur in Hours, Days, Weeks, and Months After You Quit Smoking

Once you stub out your last cigarette, your body and lungs will begin the healing process whether you a lifelong smoker or someone living with COPD.

Read more from Verywell Mind

My best recommendation is to learn everything you can about this addiction and the quitting process. A good place to start is with the following articles.

What are Your Reasons to Quit Smoking? 
When is The Best Time to Quit? 
How You Can Prepare to Quit 
Quit Aid Choices 
Supplies to Have On Hand When Quit Day Arrives

You can do this, Don. I'm glad you're here. 

Hugs,

Andrea

Hey Don..

I have been right there too in the past few weeks. I had a very vague plan to reduce the number of cigarettes i had per day before maybe.. eventually.. quitting. I told myself this would keep me calm, focused, and not a raving maniac to my co-workers and people i’d like to keep liking me. So this morning where i would normally smoke before even opening my eyes, i decided to wait half an hour. This has just kept happening all day and soon it will be 24 hours. Why light up now? 

Have i been an a**hole to the unaware friends who called me today? Yep. Have i cried? Yes indeed. Am I absolutely irrational, angry, and questioning if i really need to quit right now? YES. But if i smoked now, today would be a waste. I can only keep reminding myself that it’s worth the misery for now. The cravings are going to go away, the anger will get less and go away too.

My doctor had put me on Wellbutrin months ago and i didn’t start it until last week. To be honest it really hasn’t made me want to smoke any less, but has for sure taken my attitude down a notch or two.. up to today at least! It’s worth it. It has to be. We all know the damage we do to to our lungs, heart, and every other part that wasn’t meant to have to process cigarette smoke. Read the articles on what your body does to start healing in the hours and days after you quit. It’s awesome and truly helpful in getting me through every craving and fear. 

Hang in. Everyone here has done this and is doing it, so you aren’t alone!