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Alexandra's Quit Story   Quit Stories and Journals

Started 9/23/15 by alEXsmoker (afrancis333); 46032 views.
Brenda (1sept19)

From: Brenda (1sept19)

9/17/19

Alex, 

I really like the new user name, kinda says it all, ALEX IS FREE. I think you are right, a lot of healing took place yesterday and you made it through victorious. It took me 8 years to get back to this mindset so I understand exactly what you meant. I think I learned a lot from you yesterday, because in talking with you, I had to process my feelings about it all.  I have to protect my quit at all costs, no matter what and I think that was reinforced a little more yesterday.  So glad we both made it through yesterday and are stronger today.

alexisfree

From: alexisfree

9/17/19

Yay!  I'm so glad to hear that Brenda.  I'm happy we're quit buddies blush

alreadysick

From: alreadysick

9/17/19

Alex, ya'll are so fortunate to have such a great quit group. My July group rarely posts. I guess they are doing so much better than me and don't need support as I do. I'm happy for them if that's the case. I am still working through 46 years of bullcrap done to me by the nicodemon. It's a physical and psychological horror story. I still hate mornings, and I still have cravings throughout the day. 10 wks. tonight and still not a happy person. I still feel so tired and sick most of the day. Plants died on the back porch because I don't sit out there anymore. I'm behind in housework as well. It seems like my whole life revolves around this quit. I think that's fine to a point, but after all this time I should be at least back on a fairly normal schedule. I do go to the gym on a regular basis, but that's the only thing back to normal. My family is still supportive, but I think it reaches a point where they are thinking that life needs to move along.

Sorry, I just needed to vent. I'm so proud of all of you!

Michele

killed the beast 7/9/19

alexisfree

From: alexisfree

9/17/19

Good job Michele!  I'm so glad you posted this.  I was thinking a similar thing this morning.  Like, I'm going thru the motions of life, but hardly anything is getting done the way it used to - it is quite discouraging.  I just had a co-worker ask me if I was going to do my job today (in a nice way, but I've been basically just trying to stay smoke free).  My June group from 2014 or 2015 was a similar case to yours - never really posted after we moved to Delphi - I don't know if any of them made it or not.  My guess is, the nicodemon got them.  We are very fortunate to be miserable and smoke free today.  It beats being miserable and smoking blush I'm honestly considering going to my doctor to talk about this depression if it doesn't lift.  I know some people went on Wellbutrin for a while which helped them with their quits.  I may try it.  ANYTHING to stay away from the sickarettes.  I'm so over those pack of jerks.  I'm proud of YOU!!! kissing_heart

Meredith (GettinFree)

From: Meredith (GettinFree)

9/17/19

(Yeah, I see that, loving the new username sugar plum...)

Apparently yesterday was the day for it -- me too. Not weepy or anything, just a medium-sized depression hole. "I'm worthless" and the like. Thankfully this is a lifelong thing and I know to ignore the thoughts and give my depression monster a hug.

And the not getting hardly anything done. I'm super ready to get back to life too, tearing my hair out over here, but not at the cost of my freedom.

Alex (alexsmoker3)

From: Alex (alexsmoker3)

9/17/19

Meredith,

Thank you so much for sharing that. I’m not alone - yay!  Yeah,  I read in my journal  this morning that there are some things that make me feel like a real monster. And then they suggested to pat my little monster on the head LOL. I like the way that you put it about giving your depression monster a hug. I had some good self talk yesterday -  telling the young version of Alex that she’s OK and she is loved and she is perfect just the way she is and I will take good care of her from now on. It was very cathartic to say the least.  Off to yoga now!  xoxo

alreadysick

From: alreadysick

9/17/19

Can I adopt you as a twin to my 37 y.o. daughter? She would love you and have a blast with you! LOL

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Alex (alexsmoker3)

From: Alex (alexsmoker3)

9/17/19

LOL - yes definitely! blush  Yay!  Mama Michele heart_eyes_cat

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