Thanks Laura my mind is truly a bad neighborhood. But I trust that it will work itself out. As long as I keep quitting it will stick eventually. I'm hoping today is the beginning of a long and healthy quit.

Hahaha.... no Youdi is not You Die ... Friends fondly call me Youdi.. 

Hi Everyone, 

Checking in on this lovely Monday morning.  I made it thru the weekend without a cigarette.  I must admit that last night my anxiety was thru the roof!  I was praying my butt off.  But it worked.  I'm happy that I made it thru.  It is crazy to me that this addiction can permeate every bit of my being.  It was so elusive that I could not see that I was not making the choice.  My addiction was.  I NEVER want to be in that position again.  I am hanging on to this quit as long as I can.  For today, I'll just take it one moment at a time.  I love you guys so much.  

Alex

P.S.  I will also add that I was feeling guilty while smoking, but then thinking the smoking would help my feelings of guilt, but it wouldn't because the thing I was feeling guilty about was smoking.  Ugh.

Great going Alex!!!! 

Thanks Youdi.  

Hi Alex,

Nice to see your meter up and running.  One moment at a time, then one day at a time.  You can do this.

Thanks Marge.  I appreciate your support very much.

Just posting to check in today.  Its been a little sticky.  I saw a friend of mine smoking outside my workplace earlier.  I joke with him saying, "Give me one!" and he laughs, but part of me kind of wants it.  I guess I should stop pretending/playing about that.  Here's to another day smober!  xo

Hey Alex,

Here's  to another day somber with you.  I hope you have a nice Thanksgiving with low stress and lots of fun.  Stay strong.

Alex, you're doing great - just keep letting those hours and days add up - it will be worth it in the end.  Nearly at the end of Hell Week which will feel great!

Sooz :)