Well, like I had a mini freak out, but I walked the dogs and feel better. I have to do some shopping, so that will distract me. I notice I am coughing less and that's good because I'm getting better sleep. I'm sleeping better, which is weird because a lot of people here complain of insomnia. I am still using a patch, and am doing my best to keep busy. Im sure I'm getting annoying by posting all over, but it's keeping me strong.

Hey Tiny,

Your are definitely not annoying.  This is exactly what the forum is for.  None of us is always here but if you are having a hard time with craves post and usually someone will offer you support.  

The coughing less is wonderful.  Before I quit I had the 'smoker's cough' every single morning.   Keep on thinking about all the benefits you are winning  one day at a time.  The list is long for us all.

I hear your plea about wishing you’d wake up happy to be a non smoker, I will tell you that after quitting april 1 2019, when I got to 4 months, that’s how I felt.  Glad that 95% of the time I was past thinking about it. And now, the only time it ever occurs to me that I don’t smoke is if I’m on here. You can get there!

I really hope so. I was pretty desperate this morning. My husband got me up and on a walk, which helped. Then we went shopping. Unfortunately, after dinner he went outside and smoked. He says he's not ready and I respect his honestly. I know it can be done, but damn it's hard to quit with another smoker around. I keep reading articles here and trying to stay neutral with him. I told him when he's ready that I'll be there for him. I'm glad at least he is keeping me distracted and being my cheerleader. It's weird how he's not ready but he's trying really hard to keep me motivated. Hopefully he'll quit soon. The mornings will get easier. I'm trying to change up my routine and the meditation and eating a healthy breakfast seem to help. It requires getting up a little earlier but whatever it takes.

Hi! I have made the decision to quit & I feel happy & petrified.

I am not a forum sort of person usually so I am not sure if this is appropriate but I wanted to thank everyone here for being here  

and wish you all the most wonderful happy healthy futures!

A question I have is, did/does anyone else feel a sense of grief? 

I realise this may be an odd emotion and I don't understand it but I definitely feel it.

Many thanks for any thoughts 

Hi there Kittie,

Welcome to the forum.  Good for you in making the decision to quit smoking.  During my quit I often felt like I was going through the stages of grief.   Of course, it was a milder version of the grief then how someone feels having lost a family member or friend but nevertheless it was a form of grief.  Not odd at all that you feel this way.  Just know that it will get better.

Please stay with us and post and read and  get educated on nicotine addiction.  If you can start at the beginning of this thread and read all the articles along the way.

Why Do I Dread Quitting So Much?

Nicotine Withdrawal and Junkie Thinking 

Understanding the emotional stages of loss when quitting smoking

Hi June quitters,

I'm embarrassed to state that this is maybe the fifth group I join, but well. This is a terrible addiction. Let's go again. 

Ovdz, I'm glad you came around too. 

I'm right behind you. 

TinyBadger, I know what you mean about having a smoker in the house. My husband doesn't even tell me off anymore when I relapse. What can we do, we're locked inside the same tiny house for the fourth month and counting. I just keep trying, keeping failing, keep getting back up. 

Be strong, all of you, all of us :) 

Ana

I have Just registered today and I am on day 3!  Tough one today.  I can't believe  I am having to go through this again.  I'm ashamed to say a couple of years ago, I started smoking again after 3 years of  abstinence.  Support on here will be invaluable.  

Hi Dotti, 

Welcome to the forum! I'm on day three as well after having lost a quit of 50 days that must have been my thousandth. 

Don't be ashamed, we're all fighting for freedom here. 

I get that it's hard to believe we're at it again but at least you've made a decision and are better than being smoking. 

So congratulations on your decision! Don't doubt it, you've made the right decision! 

Ana

Hi Tiny Badger, 

Post as much as you need to. That's what the forum is for. I have the opposite problem - I'm not always here and sometimes miss important messages, but we are all as available as we can. 

I love the message from DbAnne wishing us a speedy recovery - isn't it an amazing message? We can recover from this addiction. 

Ana