Did you read Allen Carr? Did it do anything for you? I found some of it very eye opening even if I did not like every part of it. 

There is always that 90 year old guy who smoked all his life but that is rare. Most smokers suffer the deadly effects..

I love your tattoo Tiny without even seeing it. The symbolism is fantastic and how you wrote here your awareness of where you were, where you are, and where you’re going...just beautiful. 
No...you’re not alone. Yes you are worth this fight. And you are helping so many others here on this journey too. What comfort is there greater than taking care of yourself and being able to help others at the same time? And what a dear friend your Hubby is to walk this path with you and plant those lilies. 
I’d say you have what you reached for and now is the nurturing and tending to it. What beauty you’ve sown...

Hello Anthony! 

I think you are like 18 hours ahead of me. How is the day playing out for you? You’ve got several more hours under your belt now. Bet you got some good pics today. 
I love you get to get out more and witness the regrowth. Yours and that of the land. And yes...the smells that unfold with Spring...mmmmm.

Let us know how you’re doing!

Thanks for the home base Marge, I just can't wait to explore if that pic is a sample of the view

Kind regards

Anthony

That's it Lore new beginnings, time for some regrowth, took a pic of our national emblem this morning, see it in my Nope pledge, beautiful yellow blooms, spikes all over the plant, The Wattle. Went swimming this morning if you could call it that 40 min in the water floundering around like a jelly fish, anyway you can't smoke in the water, I've made myself really busy and that's helped with  the distraction side of things. I didn't use a lozenge this morning, the patch was enough, but my wife left her smokes out and I saw them and immediately had this inclination to smoke, I quickly put them in the cupboard and kept walking, i finished the lawn off and went down and bought a new pair of joggers, my reward for keeping on track.

Progress report:One day, 14 hours, 15 minutes and 59 seconds. 49 cigarettes not smoked, saving $61.63. Life saved: 4 hours, 5 minutes.

Kind regards

Anthony

Oh Tiny, I feel for you, without reasonable mental health quitting is so hard, and your not getting any sleep on top of that, with your back, use those painkillers short term if they do the job, I have all the symptoms you mentioned and I can understand what you are going through, Your husband sounds like a very caring human being, you are fortunate to have a partner who empathizes with you. I have heaps of support around me for issues like that, don't be afraid to reach out to the professionals, they have saved my life numerous times. If you don't smoke that's a bonus, smoking wouldn't help things, it never helps, find a good counselor and get things off your chest if that's what you need.

Maybe I'm out of line here, tell me if I am

Kind regards

Anthony

Fantastic! 
I saw that picture and it looks pretty. I’m going to read about it. Seems like Agave would grow in parts there. Such a fascinating land you live in Anthony. It’s funny how we tend to take for granted some things right around us. Couldn’t believe when I first moved to Seattle how many folks from there had either never been to Mt Rainer, or hadn’t been in twenty years. I soak up all these natural places around here as much as I can and as often as I can. Would love to soak some of them up around where you are, and someday I will!

Right...can’t smoke in the water! Strong work putting the smokes out of sight. Are you back to the 21mg patches? I stayed on those longer than what the box says. The step down was pretty hard the first few days and quite noticeable. It took some grit to get through that first few days of the 14mg. Didn’t notice the 7mg after that as much though. I also had some 4mg lozenges that I cut in half. Not sure if one is supposed to do that but it seemed to work fine and I didn’t want to waste them but 4 got too much. 
Im real sorry your wife isn’t there yet with quitting. That would be a tremendous difference for you. So...you have your Forum Family. You did like 10 weeks already, so, the Will is there. It will happen. 
Thanks for sharing the photo! Beautiful moon tonight here. Funny how it’s the same one you see, yes? And you will see it full before us I think. 
Have a wonderful day and sleep all you want!

Yes sometimes it feels like that, I don't know whether I'm coming or going half the time, but I keep pressing on, no use regretting that you didn't take opportunities when they presented themselve, lifes to short for regrets, so I would say chase that pebble

Take care Lore

Kind regards

Anthony

Oh yes...I live for snatching that pebble for sure! Life is quite grand but way too short. 
Seize the day Friend! It is all yours. 

Hi xvaper,

I have read Allen Carr three or four times now, I have the book and the web link, I find his approach very motivating he's a real salesman but I could never do cold turkey. 

I think the latest figures I saw were 60% of smokers die of a smoking related illness

I saw where you posted that you were finding it hard to manage your quit today, My advice is have a warm bath and relax then go to bed early and tomorrow is a new day, Remember H.A.L.T. Hungry Angry Lonely Tired, four reasons you are likely to have cravings.

Remember we are here for you, you helped me out.

Kind regards

Anthony