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First 10 days review   General Chit-Chat

Started 5/6/20 by Musivore; 104054 views.
Loreficent

From: Loreficent

10/13/20

Good morning Love,

I am so sorry you have so much pain right now and wish I could just take it away and make it better. I love the fact that you were reconciled and friends. This is what you must hang onto now. Yes, be in the cave there, watching the waves, the respirations of our planet and mother and home. Just let them wash in and out and carry your heart for a while. In that small cave there is a tide pool that is brimming with life and each time I’ve gone I find something different in there. The sounds and echoes of the water in there are one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard. As lovely and calming as the wind whispering through the old growth in the forest nearby. All these sounds, these moments, I send to you today with hope and peace to calm your mind and soothe your soul. The preciousness of life cannot be quantified in written words. It can only be felt deeply in our hearts and souls. Perhaps we are only as deeply aware of it in moments of loss of a loved one. You are blessed to have come full circle with him, in the reconciliation that you made, and I know this is your treasure now to have this. Be with it and be in the cave. My heart is there with you too my friend. purple_heart

euknight

From: euknight

10/13/20

Sweet Lore,
Thank you for letting me write about it and thanks for your response.

I think I will have to write a lot in my journal to process this.  Talked to Tues. tribe about some old times with him today.  It wasn’t bad but felt strange.  My friend’s daughter who had a giant crush on him when she was little may come with us to the burial.  Guess more strength in numbers.  Maybe they will tell stories.  Probably.  I just want to be with his huge German Shepard right now.  Weird.

I do like the protective rock of the cave walls framing the outside world.  I am afraid of another day like Sunday...but whatever comes I will get through it somehow.  Like being in a vise grip.  

Very true of the preciousness of life.  More than anything I see this through veiled eyes.  I don’t know how people survive this hating their ex.  Maybe it would be easier.  I have no doubt that friends are better than lovers always
 

Hugs

Peggy

5-8-20

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

10/13/20

Oh, I don’t think wanting to be with Kiowa is weird at all. Makes sense to me. I have a small oil painting done by a local artist I bet you’d love. It is a skeleton hugging a dog. I got it because when someone passes, their fur family grieves too and I think this is often forgotten. It sounds a tad morbid but it is actually a really pretty picture. I’m glad you have friends to go with. 
Mmhmmm. Whatever comes, you will get through it. Comfort of the Cave. The walls of rock surrounding. That cave is actually rather deep and high and conceivably, one could go in there and wait out the tide as there are rocks to climb up and sit on. There are caves down a bit further that the Sea Lions hang out in. You’d like them too. 
I think you should come right out and ask about Kiowa. Maybe he could visit you for a bit? They may be glad to have the offer while they take care of things. Just a thought. 
Yes...friends are better than lovers. It doesn’t sound to me your eyes are veiled. Not many come full circle like you did with him. What a treasure in a short life. 
Well, I have a candle going for you Peggy. It will last about seven days and will be sending light and love. 

TinyBadger

From: TinyBadger

10/13/20

I don't think it's weird to want to be with his german shepherd. I could see it as comforting. I agree that it's hard to hate someone and you never know how things will unfold. My mom's partner (a woman) was previously married. She got divorced and always stayed in touch with him. When we went to California we even visited him a few times in his home. It felt completely normal and causal. I think it's admirable not to hate someone. When you are angry you carry the burden, not the other person. Be strong, kind lady. You will make it through this with the friendship of two tribes, in person and online. I care for you and I hope that you're doing ok. You'll find peace soon. 

TinyBadger

From: TinyBadger

10/14/20

You feeling a little better today? Not a lot, but just a little? We're here for you when you need us. Promise. 

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

10/14/20

Hey Lovely...

How did the day go? You doing ok? Thinking about you. We are here for you.blue_heart

TinyBadger

From: TinyBadger

10/15/20

Yes, we do worry ...

CC to euknight
SusanK1960

From: SusanK1960

10/16/20

You are in my thoughts and heart.....

Loreficent

From: Loreficent

10/16/20

Hi Susan...

So tell us!! Does it feel different with over a year now? Man. Can’t wait to be there. Well, only way to is through it right?

I had a pretty strong little knee jerk urge today at worK,  of all places, as I never smoked there. Would stop a few blocks away and smoke after, but never during the work day. It was a total knee jerk response to something that made me kind of mad, which doesn’t really happen often either. But it was such a clear thought when I hung up the phone with this person of “I want to go have a smoke!” Actually had a bit of tsunami! Ugh. I know it’s normal and we all go through it. I think I should go read that 8th month thread that is here somewhere. Didn’t you have a bit of this in this time frame too Susan? Well, I just told my colleagues I needed to take 10, which is also some we don’t do or have really is breaks. But I put in my AirPods, put on my eye shades, and didn’t have a cork! (Sorry...old Tommy by The Who reference there)  But I buttoned my lip and walked around the block. It’s a crappy neighborhood and our Security doesn’t like us to do that, but I would have felt sorry for anyone to mess with my 5 foot hiney in that moment for sure! Plus I figured I could outrun most of the addicts hanging around, lol! That’s not nice, and I’m sorry. They never bother me or any of us really except to ask for money or a smoke, of which I had neither. So...in the end, it all worked out and I actually was gone about 15 minutes and felt so much better and finished the day with lots of laughs. In the moment though...ugh. So, the moral of the story for me still is...keep the forum close (I wrote a brief rant to Jaka in another thread as he had mentioned feeling angry and it felt good to validate that for him and get it my anger off my chest) , keep music handy, be ready to walk briskly for a few minutes, and continue with the world’s best chocolate milk! stuck_out_tongue_winking_eyegrinflushed

Susan...I’m dying to know what it feels like now!!

Eve...I bobbed and weaved good today!

Tiny...you are not the only one that still finds yourself on the ledge and are never alone!

Peggy...we miss you and hope you’re ok!!yellow_heart

  • Edited October 16, 2020 11:58 pm  by  Loreficent
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