I love this Reinventing!!

I do not need to be perfect!  I do not need to get it all done.  And I do not need lozenges to get me from one moment to the next!!!  Now!  What do I do with those moments in between.  My anxious moments?  What on earth do I do???

Well!  I will Reinvent!!!

Peeps#  I will keep you posted on my NEW life!  

Let it go Andrew... All of it.  Let go.  Take it moment to moment.  Day to day.  You have got this and so much more.  Know that there is life after quitting.  Life gets better after quitting. The clouds will clear Andrew and a new dawn will break.  Stay cool my friend!

The World is your oyster Jerthie! It really is. 
I understand the anxiety. It sucks. For me, exercise was the ticket away from it. It doesn’t erase it, but it keeps it at a manageable level. We’ve all read that a million times. It took some time for me to trust it. Well, not even trust it really, but to get to the point where I was so frustrated with anxiety, and so tired of it that I just went out and ran. Well, it worked! 

Anxiety is energy. It’s like it just arrives and your either stuck with or figure out how to expend some energy to balance it. Can be anything you want! The key is…do something. Don’t just focus on it. It’s a prompt. Telling you get busy. Find the Pearl in the oyster!

This is brilliant!!!  Such kind encouragement!

Thank you tonnes!!!

This makes sense to me now.

With each moment today it makes more sense!!!

Yes.  The world is my oyster.  I am going to live my anxiety out thinking this.  At the same time I am not going to be too tough on myself.

I love this!!-  thank you!

I am not at a full quit... Yet.  But want to get there now!!!  No more settling for just 2 or 3 lozenges a day.  I want to put nicotine behind me.  I have had 3 lozenges so far today.  I used to have had 5 or even 6 at this time.  So it is a small improvement!

I need to feel excited about a quit... Not dismayed.

I changed my picture to a less formal format, I think that means I am mellowing out about this whole affair. I am trying to take it (smoking) less seriously - to go easy on myself for relapsing. I so much want to be sucessful this time. 

Getting tired of the on off syndrome. The myth that I get pleasure from lighting up because it does absolutly nothing for me (Allen Carr) is true, so why I do not accept this myth is beyond me.

If you have access to Carr's book read the chapter on myths. It's very helpful. We are fooling ourselves to think that there are any positive things about smoking and accepting the many misconceptions is important to staying smoke-free. 

Almost 2 weeks into my quit I am fearful that I will start back up on an impulse which defies any meaning  of these myths. I continue to fool myself that I don't care, which is untrue. I would not be on this forum if that was the case.   

Smoking is a contridiction for us. I don't want to quit vs I do want to quit. That mindset puts smoking in the drivers seat when I get a strong urge. I have to fight it with all my might knowing that these feelings will pass in time.

On and on it goes. Feeling strong today and hoping the best for tommorow. 

Good day,

Andrew 

I changed my picture to a less formal format, I think that means I am mellowing out about this whole affair. I am trying to take it (smoking) less seriously - to go easy on myself for relapsing. I so much want to be sucessful this time. 

Getting tired of the on off syndrome. The myth that I get pleasure from lighting up because it does absolutly nothing for me (Allen Carr) is true, so why I do not accept this myth is beyond me.

If you have access to Carr's book read the chapter on myths. It's very helpful. We are fooling ourselves to think that there are any positive things about smoking and accepting the many misconceptions is important to staying smoke-free. 

Almost 2 weeks into my quit I am fearful that I will start back up on an impulse which defies any meaning  of these myths. I continue to fool myself that I don't care, which is untrue. I would not be on this forum if that was the case.   

Smoking is a contridiction for us. I don't want to quit vs I do want to quit. That mindset puts smoking in the drivers seat when I get a strong urge. I have to fight it with all my might knowing that these feelings will pass in time.

On and on it goes. Feeling strong today and hoping the best for tommorow. 

Good day,

Andrew 

Have you noticed periods of time where you have forgotten about smoking?

Oh, yes Anne. I can go hours not thinking about smoking. It's only when a trigger sends my mind into a "got to have a cig now" feeling which puts me front and center to my addiction. 

 How nice it would be to have just one for the moment. But, I'm afraid forgetting will never happen, it's too ingrained in my head for the rest of my life.

So no, I don't  ever forget.

Good day,

Andrew

I won't lie.   The thought of smoking a cigarette has crossed my mind from time to time.  At least now thought it is only a thought and not a mind numbing body craving.  Now is more like a conversation in with myself.

Do I really want to go back down that road.  It's not going to do for me what I think its going to do for me.  I will choke and gag and then, have to fight of lighting upon a second smoke - right back to where I was 2 and half years ago.  Nope - I am way to lazy to go through that again.

Chocolate covered raisins - a long hot bath or shower - a few games of backgammon - browsing through this site and corresponding with the fine folks on this site who are working on the non-smoking lifestyle.  I still read allot of the posts. 

I go on this site every day throughout the week (office worker).  I never want to loose sight of were I am in my addiction.  It helps me remain grounded and to not take my quite for granted.

Keep up the good fight Andrew,  it does get easier and easier.  It is a life long abstinence.  

Cheers!!!