Doing it but not doing it. Ok. Sounds like a contradiction .So does not wanting to smoke and wanting to smoke. 

Caught your post tonight, thought I would respond before turning in. As we speak I am smoking my last cigarette before my nth attempt at quitting. I am 40 minutes late as I was planning to have my last at 12:01am this evening . What is 40 minutes compared to the rest of my life?

I have timed it perfectly smoking my last cig in the pack right now. 

Keep on working it kid. How ever long it takes. Remember that you are worthy of this (my self-love thing).

I know you will beat this soon.

Good night

Andrew