Wishing you a healthy surgery Gayle. Blessings!

Of course Gayle. I hope all went well and you are now on the mend. It’s a long road of rehab but once your done you will be dancing all around! Im so glad to hear you have help at home from your husband and that beautiful doggy in your photo! 
Take care! 

Hey Young Lady-

Tell me something good. You are in a good place tonight?

Got to look at everything through a positive lens. Things can be clear and focused if you believe that God can enable you to see well. Break free of all that limiting stuff that is preventing you from getting what you want.  Without rambling too much, I want to say that even though you can't seem to break free today that you continue to keep trying again and again until it gets so old that it will be easier to just QUIT. Day by day make the commitment that you WILL overcome this fu**ing thing or else. Pray for strength and perseverance. You will be answered. 

This forum has made all the difference for me. Not only do I benefit from peoples' posts but for me to express my thoughts and feelings keeps me on the straight and narrow. It is a theraputic means to my health.

It's like there is a demon inside us (Carr calls this the little monster) that hungers for more and more as we continue to feed it. It stays strong and resilient. Kill it by eliminating the nicotine and it will eventually die due to starvation. 

I know it is hard. Nothing of value to us is easy. Hang in there young lady.

Enough said, Jerthie

Good day,

Andrew

Hey Cin-

Andrew here. Just posting to see how your new role is going on Delphi. I see you out there frequently encouraging and supporting others. You have a caring approach to everyone that you touch. 

I am still smoke free for 13 weeks now. Feeling good and content with my commitment. It's a little difficult late at night when Deidre is sleeping. As you may remember I am generally up late, a little lonely and bored. Potential relapse time. Fortunately, no near misses yet.

Sitting here in my office listening to my music. You know how much I love music.

I just got an IPad to read Amazon books. Needed something to do when boredom kicks in. Should be good for me because I need to stay busy all the time.

Keep up the good work. I love reading your posts.

Dancin'

Andrew

Hi Andrew,

Thanks for checking in with me.  I am enjoying my new "role" and really hope I make Denim proud.  Congratulations on 13 weeks because that is amazing!  You are doing this and I am so proud of you.  In my early days of my quit the thing that made me pull through was I didn't want to disappoint my quit buddies on here.  It really made the difference.  

So just to share a little with you, my quit date in my head was March 19th which is my daughter's birthday.  I started out using Chantix and I think it was around March 3rd I started (I don't remember) but set 3/19 for my date.  So then I woke up at 5am on March 9th and had a cig and thought...why not just start TODAY?  What the H*ll am I waiting for?  so 5:30am on March 9, 2018 was my official quit date/time.  So here on the forum I am...and then I meet Denim and Colorado Mike which all quit the same day.  We nicknamed ourselve the "triplets" and if you look back on March Warriors 2018 posts, our mascots were cute little goats.  So we carried that forward really until this very day.  Denim is my "soul triplet quit sister" and we supported each other (along with others) through thick and thin.  We have a bond unlike no other and I will never forget her being there for me.  She designed my key and I've asked her to design my 5 year wings which means the world to me.  This forum is amazing in supporting those than are striving to overcome this addiction.  I know you already know that and we are all here for each other.  

Hope you had a great day and again, congratulations on your achievements so far.  You are doing amazing and I love reading your posts.

Thank you Andrew!

I need this right now. I am going through a lot of anxiety. My bipolar was acting up yesterday too. My personal life is taking a toll on me, and as a result, I still lean on the lozenges to get me through! I do hope that God will enable me to see my life through a clear lens Andrew. There is so much noise and confusion in my head. I prayed all day today because I was so anxious. It is funny... I think I told God... God, if I give up the lozenges, will you help me navigate through the maze that is in my head? The maze that has been in my head for the past three years? God bless you Andrew. I thank you kindly for your message. Thank you for extending a branch of hope!!!

I just got back from church. We have our Catholic  Church right across the street. We take the golf cart to get there. Services daily. It’s nice . 
 

I prayed for you to help you in the struggles that you are experiencing. 
 

I think I am having a minor episode. I don’t sleep much nor am I eating very well also. No problem I kind of like the energy. I consume a lot of coffee and I suck on those damn patches. Sail through the day. 
 

Hang in there kid. You are going in the right direction. Just stay focused and with the help from your spirituality you will overcome.

Dancin’

Andrew

Andrew.... Your message to me yesterday had power over me. I did use lozenges today but not many..

Half the amount. I am using all the prayers I can to see me through problems in my personal life. And I am making a pact with the Lord... Can I genuinely cut down and do it til I quit and in return can I please get clarity in my personal life. It was a challenging morning.... Lots of crying... Emotions all over the place wanting nicotine I had a minor episode two days ago today too non stop crying.

Today my craving had me agitated, nervous, restless irritated anxious frazzled upset and emotional not knowing what to do with myself. But I perservered in not sucking on the lozenges for half an hour more an hour more two hours more until I really really have to give in. I want one now as I speak but I realize that when I do have one I am relieved for just a moment then end up feeling just as lousy only now combined with feelings of desperation and hopelessness!

Andrew.... Your message made all the différence. Thank you so much. I am receiving glimpses of clarity here and there when it comes to my personal life and I think it is because Jesus and I are working as a team!---- gotta get back to work. God bless us all!!!

God bless you Jerthie. Ask and you shall receive

Andrew

Andrew! I received so much CLARITY tonight! In the midst of all my urges to suck on lozenges and even smoke, i cut my consumption down to half the amount and received answers to questions I have been asking myself for years!! I have to tell you Andrew that reading your message to me last night jump started this new hope in me! In your quitting smoking Andrew, and writing about it you created a ripe effect of optimism and hope! I will continue to pray and sacrifice and ask so I can receive.... Receive even more clarity! I am not as anxious as I have been lately while I was consuming not gonna lie I went up to 10 lozenges a day instead of 6 because I was so desperate for answers and I needed the lozenges to help me through all of the DISCOMFOrt and unfamiliar ground. But today I sat through the discomfort mixed with the urges and cravings and I perservered!!! The prayers and sacrifice saw me through not the lozenges! It was the prayer and sacrifice that saw me through!!! Thank you Andrew! God bless us all!!!