When you measure yourself by comparison to others, you will forever stay in the feelings of being less than no matter the success of reaching your preferred circumstances.
Ask yourself: By whose measurement stick? - Your parents? - Your own? Where is the comparison in Oneness?
Comparing, self-loathing, plotting strategical advances, and attacks are the fruits of living vicariously through others. Wanting to have what others have, possessions, experiences, and power starts and ends with the ego.
The ego becomes obsessed with cravings, desires, and in planning revenge either by 'winning,' or if that doesn't work, it will end up as destructive behavior with efforts to destroy the other(s), which is always self-destructive. Low self-worth always seems to find a way of self-destructive means. No 'one' wins in judgment.
Have faith, be in peace, and have patience with who you are as you are. Continue to evolve your life expression and feeling your experiences. Stay on the path of manifesting your preferred circumstances, nothing wrong with that! But ask yourself, 'What is it I truly want, what's under all the desires for things and experiences which I think with make me happy?
Could it be freedom from all of the human suffering?
No matter life situations and on-going circumstances, rest in contemplation on this: Be at peace, even if it is just for an instant, with how and who you are right now. Just be at peace for one second. Rest in this refuge.
God is the highest evolutionary intelligence with a very active and perfected karmic reasoning in spontaneous expression as your own Self in human form. You are this God; it is the ego's perceptions that are currently filtering your full integration.